i think i emo quite a lot. or at least that's what i think. i sleep so little once i'm back to KL but when i'm in Ipoh, i'm always tired and sleepy. it is like in KL i sleep from 2am or 3am and wake up at 11am but in Ipoh, i sleep at 1am and wake up at 12noon. haha. don't ask me why. prolly cause home makes you feel more comfortable? oh and i realized something. when you're in your home (your origin), you tend to shyte longer. something like you're taking your own sweet time, you know what i mean and vice versa when you're out.



i wonder why. it is already 2am and i'm like so energetic. i spent last night doing something else rather than sleeping. don't ask. and it is not anything dodgy or sexually active (for pervert minded people).



saw a doctor today. finally, i heard?? oh well. he wanted me to do some kinda scope thingy to check my stomach. he gave me some pills. one was labeled with vomit and the other was gastric. did not take the gastric ones cause i'm pretty sure i don't have gastric. for those who were really concerned about me especially someone out there whichislikemanymanymanysomeones, i'm fine :) still butt kicking as ever.



don't know why but i felt like posting something, but i don't know what to post. feeling quite emo now and i set tears from polaris by zhang dong liang on repeat. somehow, that song seemed to be a tad bit soothing for my ears? the starting of the song, where the piano hits its first note is slow till the drums started to hit in, slow and steady, which i love the most and there comes the chorus part, where all the pieces just fit in nicely. not too noisy yet not too slow. just the kind of song my mom love. the meaning of the song prolly doesn't fit in with my current relationship but so what? i don't really remember if i did put up the lyrics of this song. lazy to check back. prolly yes, prolly no but who cares. my blog, my way, like it or not.



北极星的眼泪 – Tears from Polaris
张栋梁- Nicholas Teo (Zhang Dong Liang)

像断了线 消失人海里面
Like a broken piece of string that has disappeared in a sea of people
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
My eyes have finally lost sight of your face
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
Just wait a while desperately waiting for a shooting star to appear
愿 如果真的实现
If wishes really do come true
爱能不能永远
Can love really be forever?
明天 或许来不及变
Tomorrow's change may come too late
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远
But the memories of our shared history grows dimmer by the day
北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
Tears from Polaris, thoughts that are unspoken
原来我们活在 两个世界
For we live two separate worlds apart
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
Tears of Polaris, your eyes are red from crying
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
Drenched promises are submerged in my heart
我抬头看着 爱不见
I raise my head and find that the love has gone
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
Wait a while and a shooting star shall appear
愿 如果真的实现
If wishes really do come true
爱能不能永远
Can love really be forever?
明天 或许来不及变
Tomorrow's change may come too late
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远
But the memories of our shared history grows dimmer by the day
当对的人 等不到对的时间
With the right person yet cannot find the right time
就在放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边
In the instant when our hands separate, the love that we share is torn in two
整个宇宙都 流眼泪
The whole universe is shedding tears



i realize he is pretty cute in the show though :P blah. i got my own. no time to ogle on others. most of my time is well spent ogling on my own.



i don't know why but the line sucks so bad right now. i've to like refresh millions billions gazillions of times! i wanna go home. i wanna go back Ipoh. but in Ipoh, there is like nothing i can do but to sleep, eat, bath, watch tv, online, go toilet, etc etc etc. i mean in KL at least i can cook. i realize cooking is fun especially when people love your cooking and those compliments you get, can send you sky high wan. plus, back in KL the place where i'm staying is a bit too noisy wan. haha. i think this is the noisiest house in the neighborhood. not kidding you. either it is me or izzy. we are like the silence breaker. izzy and rahul said yesterday, it feels funny when the house is so quiet and when i walked in and started making noise, rahul smiled and said, "we're home."



suddenly, the pages where i refreshed for millions billions gazillions of times just so happen to be fine. TmNet is to be blamed for. i seriously wanna murder this very brilliant guy/woman/gay/lesbo/bi/it/whatever for creating TmNet and making it damn sucky right now. come on. we're moving on to modern age, living in a world of concrete jungle and you expect us to survive on such sucky line? either you get better or you go lingkup (bankrupt in other language). technology! a world with just a click. this is what we have to achieve. not a world that needs loads of refresh clicking! ah. this is one of the main contributing factor of why i am so desperate to get out of here. stop cocking me about my country cause i give less shyte about it. cops wearing anti corruption badges walking around collecting more money for their coffee breaks. this is what our country refuse to face. a country which is filled with corruption and MORE! gross cases like Nurin. things just keep getting worst. even i look down on some people with the same nationality with me. how could they do such thing? is it education to be blamed for? lack of morality? talk to my dump. they can answer better than i do. live in a world filled with harmony and peace. puiiiiiiik! protect the country and equality races. double puiiiiiiik!



is this post long enough? cause i'm running out of things to say or scold or whatever already. i started typing this exactly at 1.30am and i'm ending this post at exactly 3am.

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