i could not concentrate on my case study. not like it is due tomorrow or anything. 3 questions and i have done 1. good progress for someone who is not in the mood to do anything at the moment.

i took the blame to myself. if i hadn't called. if it did not ring. then today, you would still be laughing your guts out. running around calling me stupid. attempt to kick me but fail at all expenses. i am sorry.

for the past few days, it was rather hot. i wonder how did i survive without switching on my air cooler. amazingly i just slept through the heat. i am having slight fever and flu now. partially was because of what happened on Saturday. no, i drank gallons of water.

everyone has their limits, i am in the everyone category. i can't satisfy everyone. can i be greedy just this once? i tried, you see, i tried. but you stayed that way. it wasn't my blame to begin with. i give up.

i am beginning to feel sick of the event. it is like a repetition of what happened last week and the week before. i haven't even receive the call for my internship. i am worried. i see one by one of my friends going for the interview and me stranded here alone. i hate this.

& when the world spins, i sit here watching you. there are so many things i wanna tell you but words don't seem to be right. i wish that you could just smash my brain and see, feel, hear everything. i miss you.

i think i should just pop in a Panadol and go to bed. i am feeling................not me today.

p/s: yes, such word as the title of this post do really exist. Google it.


Currently listening to 곡 정보 보기 가슴이 어떻게 됐나봐 by A&T

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