biar kata-katamu didengari. adakalanya, manusia memilih untuk menjadi buta, bisu dan pekak. ini adalah jenis-jenis manusia yang enggan berdepan dengan hidup. manusia yang enggan berkata dengan sekuat-kuat hatinya yang dia sudah kalah, yang dia sudah insaf, yang dia kenali kesalahan dirinya. ini adalah manusia jahanam yang sepatutnya masuk neraka bersama manusia-manusia jahanam yang lain.

down with food poisoning ;( which makes me a VERY sad girl. vomited a lot on Thursday night. gotten better gradually on Friday. Saturday chest hurt due to the uncounted times of vomiting season. Sunday, whyyy oh whyyy! my stomach rebels on me ;( foooooood! remind me, not to eat in cafeteria ANYMORE. starve and die also, i swear i bring oat to uni and eat everyday! oat is good! oat is diet! oat is awesome pawesome! OAT IS ONE!

HAHA! feast your eyes on rolled oats!

Labels: emotionally unstable, sick

i could not concentrate on my case study. not like it is due tomorrow or anything. 3 questions and i have done 1. good progress for someone who is not in the mood to do anything at the moment.

i took the blame to myself. if i hadn't called. if it did not ring. then today, you would still be laughing your guts out. running around calling me stupid. attempt to kick me but fail at all expenses. i am sorry.

for the past few days, it was rather hot. i wonder how did i survive without switching on my air cooler. amazingly i just slept through the heat. i am having slight fever and flu now. partially was because of what happened on Saturday. no, i drank gallons of water.

everyone has their limits, i am in the everyone category. i can't satisfy everyone. can i be greedy just this once? i tried, you see, i tried. but you stayed that way. it wasn't my blame to begin with. i give up.

i am beginning to feel sick of the event. it is like a repetition of what happened last week and the week before. i haven't even receive the call for my internship. i am worried. i see one by one of my friends going for the interview and me stranded here alone. i hate this.

& when the world spins, i sit here watching you. there are so many things i wanna tell you but words don't seem to be right. i wish that you could just smash my brain and see, feel, hear everything. i miss you.

i think i should just pop in a Panadol and go to bed. i am feeling................not me today.

p/s: yes, such word as the title of this post do really exist. Google it.


Currently listening to 곡 정보 보기 가슴이 어떻게 됐나봐 by A&T

Labels: ranty rant rants, sick, tired

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

Etymology
The word derives from Serendip, the old Persian name for Sri Lanka, and was coined by Horace Walpole on 28 January 1754 in a letter he wrote to his friend Horace Mann (not the same man as the famed American educator), an Englishman then living in Florence. The letter read,

"It was once when I read a silly fairy tale, called The Three Princes of Serendip: as their highness traveled, they were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things which they were not in quest of: for instance, one of them discovered that a camel blind of the right eye had traveled the same road lately, because the grass was eaten only on the left side, where it was worse than on the right—now do you understand serendipity? One of the most remarkable instances of this accidental sagacity (for you must observe that no discovery of a thing you are looking for, comes under this description) was of my Lord Shaftsbury, who happening to dine at Lord Chancellor Clarendon's, found out the marriage of the Duke of York and Mrs. Hyde, by the respect with which her mother treated her at table."

Taken from here.

i am speechless. i am baffled. i am tired. i am guilty.

i didn't know that Passion (fruit) in Malay is Markisa till i spinned the bottle and read the label. i didn't know that i had a pimple on my right elbow till i rested my elbow on the table. i didn't know that everything changed to fast till i had a hard time chasing. i didn't know that when i am trying to please everyone, no one pleases me. no one ever told me this and i don't think anyone will.


Currently listening to 곡 정보 보기 나쁜 마음을 먹게해 (Dance Ver.) by T-MAX

Labels: mess not, sick, tired

13 more days to go

ok. so i don't ogle at actors that much but let's make today an exceptional. Alexander Richard Pettyfer! he is such a cutie pie! and i find it hard to believe that he is younger than me a year! he doesn't look any younger than me! oh and he looks so gorgeous when he smiles! why didn't i notice him in Stormbreaker? i only notice him in Wild Child *one of the random movies i download* and he seriously dig Rob Pattinson infinite times!







anyway, i always have this thing in mind. drooling over actors/actresses is fantasy. we need to snap back into the reality at one point. and sometimes, it is a bit waste of time. logically speaking, do you think that they would set their eyes on you? there are 6billion more people and in what luck you think you are one of them? so, WAKE UP! haha! anyway, i am lucky enough to have the boyf with me. could not have asked for more!



my world most awesome fantasy! haha. ok. this is bad. my palm is swollen and it is itching underneath the skin. this is really bad.

Labels: pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sick

51km more to Kuala Lumpur :D
and i am typing this using wordpad.
(originally was Ms Word03 till i had to correct EVERYTHING i typed ><)
HAHA!
weather is terrible.
what more terrible is that the car smoked in between Ipoh to Tapah.
turns out that the fan's carbon worn off!
went in to Tapah and had it fixed for RM280 ><
we were pretty lucky as the guy knows what he is doing.
plus, he was doing a rush job overhauling a Proton.
took the trunk road till Slim River and exit out to highway.
then, that is when the weather starts getting bad.
it rained SO heavy that
the opposite road had 4 cars buttsecks-ing each other.
the damages were pretty awfully pain too.
*ouch*
there were pretty many inconsiderate drivers as well.
braking like it is their father's road.
cut in and out of the lane like they are invincible.

i landed myself with flu and headache ><
AGAIN!
the flu was so bad that it actually pulled my head.
i remembered someone asking me why am i sick for so long.
i guess it was cause of the workload.
things that keep me busy, keeps me slim.
HAHAHA!

Hentian Sebelah Rawang 1km.

the boyf has quite a lot of seaweeds with him.
courtesy of his parents who just came back from their 1 week vacation.
2 days in Shanghai and 5 days in Korea.
apparently,
they weren't that pleased as there was a tour guide guiding them.
(his parents are rather those that i-wanna-explore-myself type)
what more funny was that,
in Shanghai they went to this factory that produces pills.
pills for sickness, all kinds i presume.
then there is this Chinese doctor, tabib,
did a palm check
*you know like those days back in China kind of thing*
for both of his parents
and said that his father's liver is BAD.
lol!!
you can guess what happened next.
that tabib recommended one whole bunch of pills to his dad!
his mom?
sparkling clean healthy!

Kuala Lumpur 33km.

this whole week going back to Ipoh was rather tiring.
it makes no different than those days in KL.
i regretted not eating more Chee Cheong Fun.
i regretted not having more sandwiches at Char Yong.
i regretted not getting more liu fun at the famous big tree.
i regretted not savouring the banana leaf rice at Anderson.
i regretted not slurping the delicious Mango Lolo at Tong Sui Street.
oh those delicious food!
don't ask me why no kai see hor fun.
it is not delicious as how it used to be.
before they got all famed and so,
they were serving pretty delicious kai see hor fun.
clear and no MSG soup,
nice crunchy taugehs,
soft and smooth chicken!
it was SO yummy, BACK THEN.
now?
everything changed.
the last time i had it was 2 years back.
it wasn't that mind blowing anymore.
but i always love Ipoh's chee cheong fun.
the nice mushroom sauce with the red sweet sauce.
i am so hungry now ><

Susur Masuk ke Restoran Jejantas 500m

oh well :)
guess i am reaching soon and time to off lappie :)
the sky is clear and colorful.
how i wish i brought my camera along and snapped it.
oh and MrBrinjal,
thanks for telling me that D60 dropped RM1k!
in any case,
it makes no difference cause i am getting it next year!
and it might be a D40!
wait till i got money la!
then we can go out every weekend snap pictures!
WAHAHAHAHA!

this was written on 5th of Oct

Labels: disappintment, entertaining, estacyly happy, ǝɟıl, food, him, home, life, love, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired., trip, you

i swear ASSURE you that i am damn worn out right now!

realizing that i had not blogged since 17/09!

that is like 9 days whey!

and what have i been doing for the past 9 days?!

assignments/assessments, car broke down!!, classes and MORE CLASSES!

i need a break.

from the many things that i am facing now.

money is crucial cause i have BIG PLANS WITH IT!

i hope it doesn't fail ><



weeks ago, D taught me how to ask dad for a DSLR

and i actually thought about it for a couple of times

BUT what made me snapped out of it was,

"this is what i want so this is what i will earn" phrase.

yes, i am still into that D60 (RM2200 with kit).

wait till D90 is out.

it won't be RM2200 anymore but maybe RM2000!



my college's HR (Human Resource) sucks!

Raya holidays only 2 miserable days!

we have classes on Monday (29Sep), Tuesday (30Sep) and Friday (03Oct).

and our Raya holidays are only Wednesday (01Oct) and Thursday (02Oct)!

WTH!

they expect us, the outstation students, to travel to and fro like that!

you think we very rich ar?

universal cuckoos!



i hope things runs smoothly tomorrow.

the car could not start on Monday.

had to change the parts in the starter.

then, they screwed up the gear box ><

and they kind of blamed us for it!

they asked us like 10 times

whether the gear box was like that before it broke down.

it is MY car and i have been WITH IT for almost 16 YEARS!

you think i know nuts ar!!

even dad say the car's gear box is THE BEST!

were supposed to send the car back to them today

cause they called a electrician over after figuring out NUTS for an entire day!

but we did not send the car back to them.

mom wanted to send the car to the old trustworthy guy, which is in Ipoh

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keep me warm and safe && this is all i asked.

Labels: assignments, class, ǝɟıl, life, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

fuck sem4.
damn hard and stressful!
sorry for not updating so often.
will come up with a massive update this weekend :)
a nice quiet weekend!
and my cough starting to irritate me.
ish!

Labels: assignments, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired., work

i was terribly sick yesterday with sky high temperature, 39 degrees.
after drinking 3L of water within 6 hours,
and a very good night's sleep
(minus the fact that my nose can't breathe at all!),
plus with lots of TLC (Tender Loving Care),
i am miraculously feeling better today.
well, not for the cough and flu bit ><
i hate flu.
it is very annoying and depressing sometimes.

i don't know why the boyf always draw crooked hearts for me.
first, he made a crooked heart for me using some metal wire.
then he draws me crooked hearts.
i wonder if his love for me crooked or not le?
lol lol lol lol!

to be exactly honest,
i am feeling really bored right now.
i have nothing to do.
no clothes to fold.
no plates to wash.
and the flu is getting on my nerves.
i can't sleep at all!

ok.
i want to complain about my lousy group members!
i know no one from my college reads this.
or maybe my course mates?
heck!
like i care.
i am just stating the fact,
if you don't like it then don't do it la!!
as easy as ABC.

anyway, i asked them all to email me the slides for our presentation this Friday
and only one of them sent!
so, i sms all 4 of them yesterday night asking them to send.
2 did not reply my sms at all.
the one that sent told me she sent but i can't view the attached file.
the other one is giving me very lame excuses!
so, i told them to send it to me today.
and till now,
i got nuts whey!
SEE!
this is why i like doing individual presentations!
you don't have to worry about shyts like these!
i might as well just walk forward this Friday
and do it myself?!
plus, this is not a HARD presentation at all!
it is just very easy management presentation on POLC
(Planning Organizing Leading Controlling)!
not hard at all right?

in any case,
i have a back up plan of my own.
since i am at home, still sick,
i plan to use my time and do the slides myself!
i shall do the presentation ALONE
if these stupid people don't send to me by tonight!
i seriously don't have much time to proof read and all
that is why i asked them to send it to me yesterday.

anyway,
i am going to do the slides now.
i care nuts about them.
i am better off working alone anyway.

Labels: angry., assignments, class, disappintment, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

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297 loves :)
significance of me and you.

i am terribly sick but i don't feel like lying down.
it makes me body aches.
o'wells.
i am waiting till the Panadol pulls me down.

Labels: love, sick, sleepy, tired

Trailblazer was horribly terribly tiring.
nevertheless, i did enjoy myself
:)

i was positioned at the abacus area.
everything was more or less, life sized.
yup.
we, marshals, worked our arses off so that
you, the contestants will have an enjoyable time!
we only had 3 hours of sleep!
pushing aside the 3 hours sleep,
everything had to be hand carried from YMCA to DR Park!
did i mention life sized things don't come light?
YES, THEY ARE VERY HEAVY, KTHXBAI!
pictures will be up tomorrow
cause i damn lazy to do it today.
pictures were credited to D's camera
but some of it i snapped and some he snapped.
pictures and credits tomorrow la.
i am down with running nose, itchy eyes and also slight headache.

Labels: lazy, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

line is
freaking, tremendously, gargantuan-ly
TERRIBLE!

ish.
back to work.


;(

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edited@10:42PM

Labels: lazy, random, ranty rant rants, sick, tired, tired.

i really don't get some people.
it is so blatantly obvious that she is back here
and yet still wanna deny it!
*roll eyes*
tsk.
a very short update!
cause i realized i abandoned it for quite long already
(´･ω･`) sorry k?
been quite busy lately.
the Langkawi trip is so expensive.
promoting it makes me so.... ＿|￣|○
but nevertheless, i have gotten 3 people already
happy :D
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Labels: random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

i am sick, i am sick, i am sick!
YAY!
i am sick!
now, the BIG question,
mc or no mc?

Labels: sick

I saw you once, it was enough
You asked me what I wanted, I want you
But I replied, I'll have some fries
So mesmerized, my heart was over driving through

I saw your name and unashamed
I searched within 500 miles to find
Any clue just as to who I've fallen for
Cause you've got me and I've got time

I saw your picture on Myspace
Maybe someday we can turn it into ourspace baby
I don't care how long it takes
I'm saving space in my top 8 for you

The second time you were so nice
I loved the way told me to enjoy my day
But I know what you meant to say instead
Was really that you wanted us to run away

I said let's go, I'll pack my clothes
Just promise me you'll wear that purple dress you have
You look so cute when you're confused
You backed away and asked me how I new about that

I know you're scared
I know our love is crazy
And I'm so crazy
You make me crazy
For you.

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Friday never come by so fast.
tomorrow is Friday.
there are some plans that i made for
during my one month break.
but had to forcefully cancel it.
partially was because of some disagreement
and the other was mainly because of financial issue.
i decided to save up RM250 for my paintball head gear
and get a firearm license during my one month break.
how lame.
i still haven't gotten my driving license
and yet some people make it
like it is a life and death issue to get it.
i plan to get it end of this year.
maybe.
you know, somehow,
i don't feel like taking it.
call me silly, dumb, idiot, whatever!
the main one and only one reason is,
I AM NOT AS FREE AS YOU ALL OK?
i even plan to take it in KL
but
yet to be confirm
cause i haven't ask my "ATMs".

baby say he is going to bring me out
this weekend.
to make me happy
(=
he say i haven't been smiling
these few days.
often either i am too tired to talk
or feeling very stress to listen.
maybe it is a good idea to leave
everything behind
and have some good time
walking around like how we used to
and sit at MPH/Borders reading graphic novels.



(=



oh yea.
i am sick!
damnit.

meurent la chienne meurent.

Labels: him, lazy, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

LOOK.
i never intend to usurp your position,
neither am i trying to be nice to you.
BUT heck, girl!
you better pick up some manners!
you really REALLY pisses me off sometimes!
and i am warning you, girl,
you better step off my tail
before i come and destroy yours!

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many has been happening lately.
wait.
i rephrase.
A LOT of unhappy things happened lately.
from lacking of cooperations between two sides,
to misunderstanding that cause hatred.
i guess team work are pretty much useless in this sense
since everyone is trying to show/prove something
and friendliness seemed to disappeared to somewhere
and it is only one thing that remains the same,
we still have to work on it together.
yes, together.

i hope next time,
i am sane enough to even blog!

Labels: assignments, disappintment, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

hide me.
since Monday till now,
i have been extremely in a bad mood.
very bad tempered!
not only i am having the time of my month,
i am also facing lack of sleep.
i tell you,
if you piss me off now,
i will splash my pee on your face.


ok.
i am done.

kthxbai.

Labels: ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

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Labels: random, ranty rant rants, sick

i'm back to my second home.
:D
picture post soon!
got to bath now.

Labels: estacyly happy, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired

i am torn in between two, greed and understanding. i know no matter which i chose will end up in the same conclusion, me not feeling right. greed makes me happy but he has to sacrifice. understanding makes him happy but me feeling totally giving too much. the question is, should i give or should i take? i don't know. you see. i refuse to answer but i have to answer i know i have to give him a proper answer today. either greed or understanding.

my left eye corner is bruised. yep. you heard me right. long story and i don't feel like going into details or whatsoever. and my flu is still here. i hate it every time i sneeze. it feels like my eyes are gonna pop out and the feeling is definitely so not fun at all. i hate it ;( and i am feeling sick. i wanna go home now, sulk and sleep. ish ish. can i skip class and go to a clinic and get a medical leave? i wonder. which means i have to call my mom and ask for her permission. well, i guess it could be done since mom ask me to go see a doctor. in any case, i shall call and ask.

there are like so many KPCs nowadays that i am thinking of blog migrations or maybe not. i am kinda tired of blog migration. will just stick to this one till i get a solution on how to make my blog private. oh wait. there is a way! but i just wanna make certain posts to be private and to be only accessable by the password i give. or prolly i should hop back to my wordpress. oh well oh well.almost 12. i guess i should be going. class starts at 12.30. or maybe i should make a phone call. i wonder.

Labels: confused, disappintment, him, life, ranty rant rants, sick, you

ah. finally, some time for a good long update or maybe a not so long one. after all, it is going to be 1am soon and i am leaving at 7am. these few days of CNY, i can say loudly that it is a blast. quoted from a friend of mine, this is the year of rat. don't let the cat in and catches all your fortunes instead, breed more rats. i would very much agree to it. oh and by the way, it is a joke. so, laugh out loud, humans! for those who went home, which is most likely everyone, get more red packets and eat more home cooked food. don't mind what sickness may follow. just spend more time and eat more. the rounder, the more prosperous. for those who didn't, i feel sorry for you. you missed the warmest of deep and never ending love. what more, the fire crackers, the laughters, the gambling moments and the red little packets. though it might contain not much money but it is a sign of sincerity. a sign of happiness welcoming the new year. i see this year bringing a very good fortune to fashion and as well as eye opticians. i see many colors this time. well, no further comments for it. or shall i say, save the best for the last. i wish everyone is happy this year.


may what come brings you happiness and may what go washes away your sadness.


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Labels: life, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy