heh. so i haven't been blogging lately. there are so many happenings! and i dare say, i am totally burnt out! if you are in my situation, you would know why.

i seriously think most girls in my college are bloody lazy dumb asses. i have VERY solid reasons to support my statement.

1. i was standing in front of the lift, in a rush *thanks to the bloody jam* to go up to the 5th floor. mind you, i am on the ground floor. there were this bunch of girls standing in front of me chit chatting. i noticed that the down indicator was pressed. without thinking much, i just press the up indicator. the lift came, and it was going down. i just stepped in with the rest of the girls. then, this was when the most outrageous incident happened! THEY ACTUALLY PRESSED DOWN TO GO TO THE LOWER GROUND FLOOR! like hello? just use the steps can or not? it is only 2 flights of steps down!

2. this time i wasn't late but then, there were a bunch of girls in front of the lift chit chatting. ok never mind. ground floor as well. so, we all went in. heh. then, this was when the most outrageous incident happened! THEY ALL PRESSED FIRST FLOOR! wtf?! just climb the bloody stairs la! it was so packed at that time! the lift was practically filled. i used to climb the stairs from ground floor till fifth floor! in my 3 inch heels also!

3. i was waiting for the lift at first floor. lift came and showed me 4 persons. there were 2 girls standing very close to the lift door and the back there was all empty. so, i walked in, expected them to walk back or something cause there was absolutely no more space for another person if they didn't move! then, this was when the most outrageous incident happened! THEY REALLY DID NOT MOVE AT ALL!

see! i do have my reasons on why i made such a statement! RAWR!

Labels: angry., emotionally unstable, mess not, sleepy, tired.

it is already 2am and i am still awake.
no i am not having any insomnia!
i am trying to finish my stupid assignment case study,
so i can hand in tomorrow!
pft
i am supposed to be having my study week.
study week my ass!
i have been attending classes almost EVERYDAY!
cause some lecturers haven't finish teaching yet!
and finals are next week.
i can't wait for this to over!

Labels: angry., exam, lecturer, mess not, tired

spent almost my whole day at +wondermilk®
let the pictures talk!
captions would be guiding you all (:
kinda tired now ><




the back of my phone :P



i know! massive destruction of BEAUTY!



me and the boyf!
were in Secret Recipe having lunch with mom and bro before the event started.



drink more milk!



MORE MORE MILK!!



pretty little "angpau"!
no money, or milk :D
they gave out lucky draw numbers
as well as
free coupons for a box of 4 petites,
and free coupons for Mingo Mingo ice cream!
yummylicious!



this was BEFORE the crowd ok?



where you get your "angpaus",
free cupcake tattoos, and
registerations for the cupcake design competition.



the garage sales.







they invited VJ Marion as well as
some cool awesome bands to perform!



haha!
me in the cupcakes design competition!
this was the preliminary round.
they limited it to only 16 people.
a simple fee of RM5 was charged.
there were 4 rounds and one winner (:



i don't know what to say.
my hands were SHAKING!
haha.
first timer!



i did very detailed cupcake designs
where else some of the rest were sprinkling sprinkles like kids ><



it was very kan cheong!
cause i almost ran out of time to put the cupcakes into the box!
the rules were simple,
(lol. now only tell rules!)
you were given 10 minutes to design 4 cupcakes
as well as
putting those cupcakes into a box.
cupcakes will be judged based on creativity,
neatness, how you play with the color,
and originality!



i was one of the finalists (:
waiting for it to start.



i basically did a rainbow kind of thing.
you can see it at the right :D



HAHA!
i won, somehow.



i won second ><
despite some people told me that i could have bagged the champion easily.
prolly it was cause there was THIS GIRL,
she messed up my cupcakes design,
WITH HER DANGLING NECKLACE!
i feel like murdering her.
there goes my Colorsplash Lomography!



ok so second is not THAT bad.
but i still want the champion!!
want to know what i designed?
heh.
scroll more la :D
the first one is the preliminary round's cupcakes.
the bottom one is the finals.
you can see the destroyed part if you click on the picture.








ok. so this is how i spent my weekend.
i am still displeased with the results.
it was judged by VJ Marion.
i think i better shaddup.

Labels: angry., disappintment, estacyly happy, ǝɟıl, food, luck, mess not, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired, tired.

i was terribly sick yesterday with sky high temperature, 39 degrees.
after drinking 3L of water within 6 hours,
and a very good night's sleep
(minus the fact that my nose can't breathe at all!),
plus with lots of TLC (Tender Loving Care),
i am miraculously feeling better today.
well, not for the cough and flu bit ><
i hate flu.
it is very annoying and depressing sometimes.

i don't know why the boyf always draw crooked hearts for me.
first, he made a crooked heart for me using some metal wire.
then he draws me crooked hearts.
i wonder if his love for me crooked or not le?
lol lol lol lol!

to be exactly honest,
i am feeling really bored right now.
i have nothing to do.
no clothes to fold.
no plates to wash.
and the flu is getting on my nerves.
i can't sleep at all!

ok.
i want to complain about my lousy group members!
i know no one from my college reads this.
or maybe my course mates?
heck!
like i care.
i am just stating the fact,
if you don't like it then don't do it la!!
as easy as ABC.

anyway, i asked them all to email me the slides for our presentation this Friday
and only one of them sent!
so, i sms all 4 of them yesterday night asking them to send.
2 did not reply my sms at all.
the one that sent told me she sent but i can't view the attached file.
the other one is giving me very lame excuses!
so, i told them to send it to me today.
and till now,
i got nuts whey!
SEE!
this is why i like doing individual presentations!
you don't have to worry about shyts like these!
i might as well just walk forward this Friday
and do it myself?!
plus, this is not a HARD presentation at all!
it is just very easy management presentation on POLC
(Planning Organizing Leading Controlling)!
not hard at all right?

in any case,
i have a back up plan of my own.
since i am at home, still sick,
i plan to use my time and do the slides myself!
i shall do the presentation ALONE
if these stupid people don't send to me by tonight!
i seriously don't have much time to proof read and all
that is why i asked them to send it to me yesterday.

anyway,
i am going to do the slides now.
i care nuts about them.
i am better off working alone anyway.

Labels: angry., assignments, class, disappintment, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

Monday is his birthday.
the boyf's birthday.
and i gotten him his birthday present in Genting.
no, it is not what you think
cause we were sharing A room with our house mate.
yes i know, very potong stim.
i've gotten him After Eight mints.
which cost me ***** ****.
no i am not complaining.
it was nice to see his reaction.
but not the part where he almost thought i stole it!
yes.
he thought i stole it from the damn shop.
aiyah.
i tell the whole story better.

we (as in house mate, me and the boyf),
went in to this candy shop in First World.
he saw this After Eight mints
and went saliva dripping over it.
then, we left the shop
and walked till the escalator down Snow World.
i told him i wanna go to the ladies,
and there is one near the candy shop.
the boyf and house mate went to the toy shop
which was in front of Snow World
while i sneaked in to the candy shop
which was supposed to be my toilet.
bought it, kept it in my handbag and went out.
when i walked out,
i saw the boyf and house mate.
fearing that he might ask me
why i was coming out from the candy shop,
i ran a little towards them :D
then i faked all about how heavy my handbag is
and all sorts of rubbish
requesting him to open my handbag.
when he saw the After Eight mints,
he went O.o
and how nice of the house mate to ask me,
"you steal one ar?"
and so the boyf told me,
"at first i was thinking you stole it."
yea.
so much for my surprise!

nothing much to blog about today.
just felt that one day off is kinda,
not enough.
anyway,
tomorrow's class is only for 2 hours.

oh yea.
did i add in?
that i am the new class rep?
and it really sucks?
cause the Business lecturer, call him MrT,
says that i have the full responsibility
to ensure the attendance of all my friends
and also reasons of why they are not here?
how am i suppose to tell him
in front of 50 people
that this twit doesn't wanna attend class
cause the class is huge and he is 5 minutes late
and so he decided to go back and sleep?
tsk tsk.

Labels: angry., class, disappintment, food, him, lazy, lecturer, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired

it was a hectic week for me.
filled with anguish, disappointment, and some mixed feelings which i know not how to put in words anymore.
we got back what we deserved, more or less.
a joint something something something.
so means, my team will be getting our medals as the first team
AND also public apologies from them.
but when it comes to the prizes part,
i felt as if i was being robbed and returned with what's left - less than half.
it feels so fucked up that i don't think words are meant for such feelings.

exams made me feel fucked up!
nolah.
i was actually quite proud that i managed to finish IT in 1 hour.
some more i can walk out confidently that i am passing.

ah.

2 more days to go.

oh and they compensated us with,
Samsung DVD Player which is worth RM199 market price - going to be sold off at RM150 by us!
3 RM10 vouchers from Michaelangelo's - shared fairly.
1 RM50 voucher from Key Ng - Aaron's.
1 RM50 voucher from TGIF - the boyf's.
1 RM50 voucher from Parkson - my mom's.
3 RM5 meal vouchers from Coffee Cabana - shared fairly.
next Monday Secret Recipe dinner on them.

COMPARED WITH,

3 days 2 nights Taman Negara,
and accumulating prizes which comes up to RM3000!

DAMN UNFAIR RIGHT?!

Labels: angry., disappintment, life, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired

we were being robbed,
literally.
but the fact is,
we were being robbed of our time.
i don't know how to put this.
i am angry enough that it eventually spoil my mood for everything.
i don't have the urge to talk to anyone including my mom.
i don't have the urge to study for my finals tomorrow.
i don't have the urge to do anything at all.
yet, i force myself to study for tomorrow's finals.

Adventurace 2008 started off fun.
from the bottom 5,
we made it up to the sixth team to arrive at the pit stop.
after the pit stop,
we were already bagging the winner.
till they screwed up
and we have to bear the consequences.
we reached the final pit stop,
with the very confidence and the trust we hold.
that 1 hour 20 minutes they promised seemed to be like another fairytale story.
instead of first price,
we had nothing.
their mistake at our expenses.

enraged and dumbfounded.
being robbed off our time.
being cheated of victory.
it feels,















cheated.

Labels: angry.

as i was talking to the boyf just now,
i said,
"i won't give 2 shits to care about your shits."
no, i am not talking about feces but
i am talking about being brave.
i know!
you might not see the relevant in between shits and bravery.
but i can tell you,
i have seen guys who are worst than girls!
like zomg!
during a game, the guys would be like,
scared to do anything,
i.e; some very simple tackling
and after the game,
they would say something like;
"aiya i scared ar later break your bone, rib yada yada bla bla bla."
seriously, ftw!
you suddenly sissy dowan to tackle then shaddup la.
no need excuses to prove that you are double sissy ok?!


p/s: and no! i am not directing this to anyone!


the taxis in college are such a bitch.
normal days,
you see a whole line of Indian cabbies outside the hostel area.
and today i wanted a cabbie at about 1530,
i see none! nil! zilch!
i have to walk all the way to the Pyramid bus stop,
only to see the number10 bus singing N'sync - Bye Bye Bye!
moreover, today is such a hot day!
nevertheless, my face is now freaking black!

urgh!

Labels: angry., class, lazy, lecturer, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired

in starbucks now.
damn no life la.
the contractor came yesterday and he kinda fixed the phone line like within 10 second?
then only i realize i am paying RM30 for nothing??
and now there is this problem where the phone line is undetectable
and i think i have to pay extra?
like for about RM100?
for new wiring?
i am so gonna take it from the UFund.
i am not going to take out RM100 for it.

classes are dread boring.
lecturers starting to go more dull and boring.
but TATOB is kinda lame.
not the lesson but the lecturer itself.
a Chinese educated lecturer who is pursuing PHD.
apparently he wanna make himself erm.
i forgotten what is the word for it.
just that he wanna see till how far he can achieve.
*shrugs shrugs*

there is nothing much i can do at home now.
i should really like thank god for the tv,
if not i will be collecting spider web everyday.

oh and i bump into Philip.
the SMI guy that goes to CGBC.
apparently he is in Taylors, SJ.
still as cocky as ever but his hair is like longer than his face.
make him look more like a pervert.
wait!
he is already one.

gah!

boredom kills
and it really do.

Labels: angry., class, disappintment, home, lazy, lecturer, life, random, ranty rant rants, sucky line

temporarily line less.

i moved to my new place.
and it is a beauty.
finally,
our own space

;)

thursday class is supposed to be canceled.
and now she told us it is on
plus to add the cherry on the cake,
we are having exam.
this also means that;
NO HOLIDAY LA!

argh.

Labels: angry., disappintment, lecturer, random, ranty rant rants

someone bunuh me please. i came back home from work, air con spoilt, internet connection suxx and tomorrow is gonna be another day. today work suxx. seriously kan, i never thought i would ask someone to shut the fuck up, bitch. she is worst than being a pain in the ass and being a pain in the ass won't even fit a tad bit of that situation. damn clever in instructing people to do work where else she herself just stood there watching. so what if she's the supervisor? FYI, i've got like 6 supervisors ok? even the other 5 supervisors were more of a help than that fat bitch. i was sending food out and she asked me to clear table 3. so i did. halfway clearing, she asked me to send bill to table 15. that is just the small bit of an example of what happened. damn. i am not mad anymore. haha. so nothing to complain already la.

sometimes, i think i know a bit too much of other people's secrets. it frightens me at the same time. i'm scared i'll leak it out but so far i only leaked it out to 2 persons; mom and the boyf. few years back, the secret won't even last an hour. few years later, now, it somehow lasts longer than i expected. maybe cause i lost interest in telling others? or prolly cause i wanna gain trust in others and help them out of it? i don't know.


管他金窩銀窩
怎樣都比不過彼此的心窩
打包一箱溫柔
今後多多指教就相互寬容
你心窩做我的新窩
暖氣不需要使用
我已經溫暖到 融化所有冷漠

Who cares whether it's gold nest or silver nest
It can't compare with our nest
Pack a box of gentleness
From now on, we'll listen to each other so we can be tolerant toward one another
Let your heart be my new nest
I don't need to use the heater
I'm already warm enough to melt any cold indifference

sometimes, i question myself, why i wanna work part time. the one and only reasoning reason that managed to convince while keep me going is that; so i won't need to use my parents' money to buy things i need. most of the time i really wanna give up. for instance today, i really wanna throw everything down and walk out but it kinda made me think twice. you know, the money. so i told myself, stop being such an ass and keep on going. the boyf didn't know about this but i think he will when he reads this. i almost cried when i see him. i almost did

wanna know a secret? i "accidentally" cried while cutting onions today after my bro came over to visit me.

selfishly, i wanna be yours only.

Labels: angry., him, home, life, love, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, work

i am so so so tired now yet energetic because of the caffeine shot. a bit more to finishing my assignment. went to bath just now, yes i know it is super late to shower now. GUESS WHAT I SAW? I SAW PIECES OF BROWN THING ON THE FLOOR! AND YES IT IS SHIT! PIECES OF SHIT ON THE FLOOR. and if you are wondering why, here is why. THE CHINA GUYS IN THE HOUSE WASH THEIR BON BON INSTEAD OF USING TISSUES! SO MUCH FOR THE HYGIENE! THANK YOU SO MUCH! THEY STINK SO MUCH THAT THE BOTTOM FLOOR IS LIKE SO CONTAMINATED. THEY BATH LIKE ONCE IN A MONTH. THEY SMOKE HELL LOADS OF CAMEL LIGHTS OR SOME CIPLAK SUPER SMELLY BRAND CIGARETTES. AND NOW THEY SHIT AND WASH THEIR BON BON AND NEVER EVEN BOTHER TO CLEAR UP THE REMAINING. WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT!

Labels: angry., assignments, ranty rant rants, tired

so, i'm home since yesterday 6ish and i will be gone tomorrow after dinner. nothing much happened. baby was so so so so silly pro and confident that he signed up for a snooker tournament which is tomorrow at 12noon. am hungry now, VERY!


oh, talking about hungry, i watched 30 Days of Nights this morning with baby and Di Sheng. the movie was messy. i think they were trying to make the point that vampires still exist and it is not just another fairy tale? i don't know, seriously. what i know is that they go around the town biting people's head off their body so they won't get infected as well, burn the whole town so that no one would know what happened to the people in the town, the hero was being a big time hero by sticking a needle and drawing blood out of one of the guy who got infested and jab it in to his arm so he would be one of them, then the hero being the BIG BIG BIG time hero tried to kill the head of the vampires after he turned into one of them, ultraman fighting style (and by ultraman fighting style, i mean, the hero drops to the ground almost beaten to death and that is when he got this super almighty power to attack the head and kill him!), then the hero die by the hot glazing sun (vampires mah. vulnerable to sun?) next to his wife looking as the sun rises.


the worst part is that, there is this chinese boy and chinese girl sitting behind me. somehow, the boy is like acting all smart alex typo. before the movie starts (during the commercial time)

(they were talking in canton)
"my friend told me this movie very scary wan."
"got what so scary worh? not ghost movie also."


and 20 minutes after the movie started, the girl yelled like a puppy that got raped. stupig. during the whole show, the guy just couldn't stop showing how smart he was that he could predict what was going to happen next, and the only problem is that, HIS PREDICTIONS WERE ALL WRONG. baby had to look back and asked him can you just shaddup? he did, for 10 seconds. seriously kan, i think the Digi yellow man can make an advertisement/notice out of this issue cause i think the froggie from the don'tknowwhat family isn't singing good enough. or prolly they have to make one in canton, mandarin, malay and even tamil. you know, perpaduan mah.


oh and, I'M GETTING A NEW PHONE LIKE TOMORROW.

Labels: angry., him, movie and cinema, ranty rant rants, sleepy

good news! house no water -_________________- since this morning till now. good news kan? and better news, i thought got water cause someone got to bathe. when i was about to press for shampoo, NO WATER! whole body was soaking wet. resulted going to aunty's place to continue. i tell you, this is so embarrassing tulan. anyway, today wasn't that very interesting. was playing with photoshop almost the whole day. played so much that i got myself blur o.0 i wonder how i managed to do so. the picture in part1 was one of the results of it. baby liked it so much. i don't know why also. short lame story today! got something nice in my mind.



She had long straight silky black hair and she smelt so nice. he couldn't stop looking at her. every time he passes by her cake shop, she would be sitting in the corner sipping her cup of tea. elegant! perfect! just exactly the girl he had been dreaming about all the while. he was desperate to know her but he did not have the guts to. so, as each day passes by and as each time he walked pass the shop, he would enter and buy one of the muffins there. one day, he walked pass the shop and hence, he did the same thing. he went in the shop and bought a muffin. as he was heading out, a familiar voice calling him from the back. "hey! what are you doing here?" he turned and it was his best friend. "er..here to buy muffin for er..to eat," he stuttered back. "i thought you hated muffins!" his friend yelled back. he quickly dragged his best friend out of the store and told him the truth. his best friend laughed at him and said he knew the lady and promised to introduce her to him. the next day, his friend smsed him a venue and a time ending the text with the word "surprise". he dressed nicely and went to the place 30 minutes early with a big nice bouquet of red roses. he elated when he saw her walking in. he pulled the chair out for her and pushed a little in when she was about to sit. he walked back to his seat and he sat there smiling like a fool looking back at her. "why do you ask me out for?" he was in a shock as she sounded like a man. then he said excuse me then hurried to the toilet. He took out his phone and called his friend. and his friend told him a horrifying revelation. she was a he.



haha. i still like the first story i wrote. baby agreed too. he said the first one was the best wan. haha. never mind la. shall find a nice long one and a very very unimaginable twisted end! haha.

Labels: angry., ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired

what made me angry the most is when OUR own country people are even criticizing each other's religions and races, what makes us any different from others?! i was reading rage moments ago and i came across the news that this Johorean got sued JUST CAUSE he rapped OUR national anthem in chinese style R&B. to most people, it MAY seemed to be what they call as WRONG but to him it is PATRIOTIC. i find him very daring and witty at the same time. but as i scrolled lower down, i spotted this comment! this was what made me threw my temper! he not only criticize and step on us chinese once BUT MANY TIMES!





abangijam (or so he called himself as) made it so clear that he IS a RACIST and he can very well get sued for posting this. only if some people has the brains and guts to do so! hah! i bet they won't and they don't! should we all malaysian take this oh-so-special moment to criticize and step on each other? let this so romantic moment to destroy everything that our ancestors created for us? what hurts me most was the comments lamented by MOST MALAYS. i repeat myself, MOST and NOT ALL! ah whatever. some people tend to be blind and in very need of a pair of 10 inches specs when it comes to things like this! look here. our national day is like 20 more days from today! is this the way we all show our love and gratitude to the country? by one stepping on another? must we be so racist at this moment and turn our country into a chaos just right during our national day month? I AM A CHINESE. i repeat myself, I AM A CHINESE! i give my utmost respect to EACH AND EVERY RELIGIONS AND RACES in Malaysian. when i attended the National Service early this year, i was taught the Malay's doa makan. it was then i realize how beautifully united our country is. when i saw this comment by abangijam or so he called himself, i was so devastated! this is the link to his comment. click here. i dare all of you to click on the link, ignore the video bit, scroll down and read the comments made by him. go through page by page and see. see how he made our country "so beautiful" (..NOT!) and bear in mind, YouTube is NOT A MALAYSIAN WEBSITE. it is viewed by thousands and billions of foreigners DAILY! stop this racist joke and let's celebrate our national day proudly. let the government handle it the way they are supposed to. comment on the video as you like. criticize him. ruin his reputation. as you like. but DON'T, DON'T step on the whole religion issue. DON'T!


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edited;

here's the meaning of the whole song. tell me which part he rapped is wrong!



IMO, i don't think there's anything wrong. i shall leave the rest to you all to evaluate. if you think it is wrong then it is. if it is not, then it is not. this is MY OPINION.

Labels: angry.

minggu ini minggu "Sama-sama Berbahasa Melayu". saya tahu ini perbuatan yang amat bodoh tetapi saya sudah jemu dengan bahasa Inggeris mahupun bahasa Kantonis saya yang tak bertempat. lagipun hari ini adalah hari peperiksaan untuk semesta ini. saya mahu mengadu. APASAL KITA TAK DIBERITAHU BAHAWA KALKULATOR AMAM DIPERLUKAN UNTUK PEPERIKSAAN INI? SAYA MACAM PEREMPUAN BODOH DUDUK DI MEJA MENGIRA MACAM SEEKOR BABI HUTAN YANG SALAH MASUK LUBANG! SAYA KIRA SAMPAI MEMBABI GILA DAN TERUS MEMBUAT KEPUTUSAN UNTUK MEMINJAM KALKULATOR DARIPADA SENIOR YANG BERKONGSI DEWAN PEPERIKSAAN DENGAN SAYA DAN AWAK BERITAHU SAYA TAK BOLEH PINJAM!!! INI DUNIA JAHANAM PUNYA!!!!!! DAHLAH SEDANG DALAM KRISIS. BABI HUTAN BETUL.



ohkhayx, maybe it is not the malay week but WHATEVER.

Labels: angry., ranty rant rants

OH SHADDUP!

Labels: angry.

i really don't want to poke into other people's life but sometimes, i just have to. you know, to get a good laugh and whatever nots? sometimes, some things are better left uncommented. like about people's life when you're not even a tiny whiny tad bit close to that certain person. life works in a funny way. when people consult you, then you talk. when they don't then say bye bye and step back or you'll turn yourself into a real big time loser a.k.a joker.









i erased the names and everything which i think has the slightest chance to figure it out so that no one would go and nudge so and so and be an eight figured person. and yes, i had the rightful owner's permission to blog it out. for some people, you might think that this person is trying hard to cheer the other "emo" human BUT like i said earlier, this person is not even a tiny whiny tad bit of close to this "emo" human. so, it is kinda annoying cause people live the life they wanted or maybe that person doesn't really feel that he/she is so unwelcomed at all. so therefore, a good cause became a bad cause. another lesson to learn.



anyway, today is so not my day. woke up at 4 to get the HP book and i saw a bee-otch. spoil my morning only. i wonder if she would die of breast cancer or whatever cancer. not being mean or what, i just hate her to the depth of the world. she looked like a gawdamn aunty this morning and for i don'tknowwhatreason, she was one of the few who ran to get the book. like as if the books were only limited to 10 people only.

p/s : we [shayang and i] were like among the first few to get our hands on the books but we did it WITHOUT running. just walked by nonchalantly! mereka macam barbarians sahaja. tsktsk. lagipun, semua lebih tua daripada us punya. more more tsk!

BETCH
SLUT
WHORE
PROSTITUTE
CHEAPO
ARSEWIPE

ahhhhhh. that felt better :] nights!

Labels: angry., sleepy, tired