i am so mad that i am actually cursing upside down inside out in my heart. urgh. so i took my films to this shop (with a big Kodak signboard and it is a shared shop with locksmith. the one in the same row as RHB bank) in SS15. i carefully and strictly told her THREE TIMES that it is a double frame film and i want my films to be developed into 36 pieces instead of 72 pieces. she nodded and say ok ok ok and come back on Wednesday to get it.

i came back today AND SHE BLOODY DEVELOPED IT INTO 75 PIECES, RM51! i don't know where the 3 others came from but that is beside the point. she ignored me and i was pretty mad. the locksmith guy saw and he say he charge me 2 piece for the price of one. heh. so i paid RM21.50 and walked away. as any human with common sense, that Malay girl was frustrated cuse it is going to cost her out from her salary :p

honestly hor, i am NOT that easy to be cheated. plus plus, i was a bit furious before i went there cause the cash deposit machine rejected my RM50 notes again >.< aiyo. if it continues like this, i might not want to go bank in rent anymore -.-

Labels: disappintment, emotionally unstable, mess not, tired

new blogskin! so sick and tired of the old one. anyway, i just realized i need to download Greasemonkey again >.< urgh. so i reformatted my laptop and almost everything went poof on me! the old laptop had billions of applications i downloaded inside. o'wells. beggars can't be choosers. i wonder if Greasemonkey works on Opera.

Greasemonkey is a Mozilla Firefox add-on that allows users to install scripts that make on-the-fly changes to HTML web page content on the DOMContentLoaded event, which happens immediately after it is loaded in the browser (also known as augmented browsing). As Greasemonkey scripts are persistent, the changes made to the web pages are executed every time the page is opened, making them effectively permanent for the user running the script. Greasemonkey can be used for adding new functions to web pages (for example, embedding price comparison in Amazon.com web pages), fixing rendering bugs, combining data from multiple webpages, and numerous other purposes.

taken from wikipedia - Greasemonkey

lol. if you could understand. but the main deal is that Greasemonkey is created to work only in Firefox. so, go figure.

anyways, uni is starting to DIG the best out of me. classes are replica of one another (or i should rather say it is a repetition of what was taught previously). leceturers are the same old faces, which is good but also not very some times. when one tend to know one too much, one tend to crave for a fresh breath of air. hope i am making sense.

i should be doing my bloody IMM individual report which i am very off track from the main question. main reason: it is not related to IMM but IMC. go figure.

there are so many things i am so displeased with. prolly i should spend some time writing it out, in an ambiguous way. you know, i would like to keep my head attached to my body a little bit more longer ;)

p/s: i should make my blog more lively. heh. i am going to post a picture each time i write a post. no i can't say i am doing it everyday cause you know me :p

Labels: assignments, disappintment, lazy, lecturer, ranty rant rants

I am 20. I have my own dream, passion and interest. No, I don’t need anyone to step on me like that. No, I don’t need any de-motivation. You can just walk away if you have nothing better to say. It doesn’t really matter; at least that’s what I think. You kill my dream. You kill my passion. You kill my interest. You kill me. No, I did not walk away. You pushed me away.

Labels: disappintment, emotionally unstable

i am feeling very tired. very exhausted. i know i did nothing much. it feels like everything is draining me. i wonder what brought this feeling. i wonder if it was because of decisions that i had to make or rather it be the future that i had to decide. whichever it is, this feeling for sure i am going to get rid off soon.

so uni is starting soon. had this rather mix feeling. Human Resource Management (HRM), Hospitality and Tourism Law, Economics for the Hospitality and Tourism Industry, Tourism Research, Methodology and Statistic (Research), Intergrated Marketing Management (IMM) as well as Moral Studies. talking about Moral Studies makes me fuming mad ;( i wonder why i went through all the pain and sufferings in high school yet i have to do this again in uni! i am truly lookling forward for Law. it is going to be interesting though. IMM not much *shrugs* prolly cause i knew who is teaching >.< which causes me to dread even more!

looking at it on a brighter side, it is going to be my final semester. then i will be kicked out of the house to work my ass off. what brings next? yet to know. things changes to fast that i almost vomit. it is like how when you see stars and moon and birds chirping then maybe an angel or two. that is when you know you are going green and puking.

my days in Lagoon are long gone. i could partially say i am happy yet i am not. happy for i am no longer entangled with the messy politics happening. sad for the fact that i am leaving some really cool friends behind. well, i suppose everyone have to move on. prolly you might see be back there working. chances are 60-40. go figure which for which.

yes yes. i know i have been abandoning my blog as well as eff. heck i will be back soon. i had no idea what is my problem. i seemed to be tired most of the time. blame the weather i suppose? ah. it is getting late. hitting the sack. shall update eff tomorrow as well as this dead blog.

p/s: did i mention i had fish for my birthday present? correction : fishes. yes. and i found a dead prawn. long story. shall elaborate next time.

Labels: confused, disappintment, emotionally unstable, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired

내 머리는 너무나 나빠서. 너 하나밖에 난 모르고. 너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아. 니가 너무 생각나는 날엔

not late yet still the first day of Chinese New Year! will be going back to KL on Wednesday as i have loads of projects waiting for me >< depressing. please please please do drive carefully as i have witnessed many accidents on the highway during my journey back from KL to Ipoh. remember your love ones! don't break their hearts! ooo! i can smell those nice nice pineapple tarts waiting for me! not forgetting,

Labels: assignments, disappintment, estacyly happy, food, him, home, life, photography, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy

i am not ready for it yet. forgiving takes a lot of courage and strength. but i am scared the courage is not enough to bring me through it, that the strength is not enough to hold me through it. i am not ready and i could not do it.

i will be coming back to KL on Wednesday. well, the boyf could not get enough leave as he can only get one day leave. better than nothing actually. nothing much to blog today. going to update the photography blog soon

Song Title: 서신 (Letter)
Singer: 정우 (Chung Woo)

들려줄게요 나의 이야기를
Let me tell you my story
그대 없던 그 시간들을
About the time when I didn’t have you
헌데 난 슬퍼요 그대를 웃게 할
I feel sad that I don’t
얘기가 하나 없다는 게
Happy stories to tell you

미안해 말아요 그대 울어도 돼요
Don’t feel sorry, it’s OK to cry
충분히 참아온 그대죠
You’ve been holding it back enough
마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 나를 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you

미안해 말아요 그대 웃어도 돼요
Don’t feel sorry, it’s OK to laugh
충분히 참아온 그대죠
You’ve been holding it back enough
마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 그댈 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you

마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 나를 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you
그댈 담은 채 -
With you inside me

one of the OST from Heaven's Tree/ Tree of Heaven. a ten episode Korean drama and it is like a story retold by the main actress. quite a nice drama. a bit cliche now and then but well, it sure will make you sob your heart out.

Hana is a bright young girl who lost her father at a young age. When her mother returns to Japan, she comes with her new Korean husband and his son Yunsuh. Yunsuh’s mother died during his 10th birthday and after her death, he becomes autistic. While Hana is fond of her new step-brother, he wants nothing to do with her. When their parents leave on their honeymoon, Hana’s mother leaves the children with her deceased husband’s sister who will manage their inn during the trip. While they are gone, the aunt and her daughter Maya abuse Hana and make plans to sell the inn in order to pay for gambling debts and college. Despite all of this, Hana finds comfort in her brother who begins to open up to her and eventually speaks after his 20th Birthday and the day his mother passed away. Yunsush's mother died on the same day as he was turning 10, 10 years ago. As they start to have feelings for one another, Hana is afraid to love him. She soon leaves with her "senpai", Fujiwara Ryu, who also likes her. Later on, Maya gets jealous, and decides to make Hana's life even more miserable.

Source

Labels: disappintment, emotionally unstable

i wore my new pair of Oxford heels which i grabbed from Zara in Singapore and it amazingly gave me two freaking huge blisters! it hurts and it is very ugly. and now i have to suffer the consequences of not wearing heels till the blisters are healed. gah! the perfect problem is, all my heels are Oxford heels. nice!

i have a total of 6 classes this semester. 5 are in for finals and 1 would be briefing for my internship. gotten my results as well. Marketing and Management A and B's for the rest *Advance Airfares and Ticketing, Tour Planning and Development, Malaysian Studies, Finance Accounting* so yea, i am pretty blessed. i remember how worried i was once i finished Marketing fearing that i might fail. the boyf even set aside money for my resit ><

created a new blog just for photography. here. i don't want to overcrowd this blog

i had no words to encapsulate how i feel. not even the simplest words. i never thought that one day, some day, that day, it happened.....to me.

Labels: disappintment, emotionally unstable, mess not, serious business, tired

my new semester is starting soon already. haha. felt like i have done nothing productive at all during the whole one month plus holidays but i do really enjoy holidays though it is a bit dull and boring at times. well, i mentioned before that this year it is going to be super packed. well, i am really looking forward to Chinese New Year where we will be given 1 week holiday, thankfully! i still remember how much i sulked last year for the Hari Raya Puasa's holiday. i still remember when Ain said that though i am not a Malay but i do and did fight for them. whilst everyone else is having 1 week holiday, we only got 2 days! and what more absurd is that we had to attend classes on Monday, Tuesday and Friday! lucky for us, our lecturer was so considerate that she cancelled the one and only class on Friday with condition that we have to have extra 2 hours next Friday. all of us agreed! but still i am pretty much upset at how the HR team in my uni work. what will students not from KL going to do? say their hometown is quite a journey away? someone must have heard about the complaints that this year, for Chinese New Year and Hari Raya Puasa 1 week off each! haha! i have 6 subjects this coming semester *sulks* last semester i got 8 or 7? can't recall. as hectic as it may be, my Fridays are no class day for the whole semester! a nice break finally it is raining again. o'well. for the past few days, it has been raining at this hour. guess i can catch forty winks!

your beauty is only skin deep. i can't believe i trusted you. i can't believe that i actually believed what you every told me. Life is not all beer and skittles. well, now that i have made my blog private, it is not that you can read it anyway!

Labels: disappintment, photography, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, serious business

it is not always that simple. some things can be bought by money while some can't. i can buy another DSLR when i have enough money but i can never buy you back with money. no matter how much i save, you can't be bought using money. i want you to know my gift for you is still in good condition. i know, hun. i know but i value you more than the gifts you shower me with. even if you give me the universe, it is still you who i care for, not the gifts you give me. sorry. i am not in the mood tonight. will load more next day.

Labels: disappintment, estacyly happy, pictures, random, ranty rant rants

so, the pictures did not turn out nice. it was rather grainy. i guess i have lots more to learn. it was my first time snapping night pictures. iso too high and the f-stop also high. urgh. i need more practices which also simply means i need to save! the settings were, iso 3200, shutter speed 13, f-stop 6.3. yea. have a good laugh at my failure.



laugh all you want. not like it matters to me. at least i know i did badly and i was very disappointed. i thought i could do better. gah and the model of the camera is DSC-H7. turned the camera upside down only to find it in small prints >< bah. no mood now cause i am seriously upset.

my knight in shining ebony armor,
rides to me atop his stallion,
to capture my lips and lay claim to my heart,
already impaled with his flag and branded with his mark,
as i believe his is with mine,
it's only after a night of worshiping the body of my heart's true god,
and as he climbs back onto his high horse,
to descend upon his throne of self-righteousness and supposed authority,
that i realize i am but,
another piece of conquered territory.

Labels: disappintment, mess not, pictures, tired

12 more days

suddenly today, everything decided to go against me. HOW NICE! first, the internet line went down. restarted the router umpteenth times but to no prevail. seriously sucky without internet. anyhow, the internet went back good BUT for some very weird reason, my laptop seem to be disturbing the tv. disturbing as in, you know when you put your handphone near the tv and then there is some disturbance. the radio wave or something. this has never happened before and suddenly got such problem. such a nuisance!

i have seen a lot of series of unfairness happening lately. deep down in me, i really want to confront that certain someone just to wake her up and let her know each and every bit of ugliness that was covered with tonnes of sweet talk. her life has been feed with lies and she knows about it but she refuse to believe. how could there be such a person like that in this world and not to mention the position she is in! for her position, i find it very immature for her to do so and i strongly believe that she deserve a very huge big slap as a juicy reward! such people ticks me off! it disgraces everyone who are in the same position as her.

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i don't know whether i should trust in luck or fate but i know having you by my side is definitely a lifetime happiness. i am not sure how it began and i don't know how the ending will be like. one thing i am very sure of is that no matter how sour or bitter the future can be like, you will always have me by your side. i will never let you go unless you ask me to. i will never leave you alone unless you want me to. i will share all your sadness and happiness together. baby, we will and we can go through this together. you always have my fullest support.

Labels: disappintment, him, life, love, luck, mess not, sucky line

20 more days

so, i did promise on the China post :D
but i am so lazy to even photoshop it.
best bit is,
the camera is back home, in Ipoh!
smart smart smart!
i will be very much camera-less till January.
that is when i will be getting my DSLR.
hopefully the plan works out fine.
if not, my blog would be pretty much picture-less till i don't know when!
so i think i will drown my blog with words!
haha!

watched Twilight with the boyf.
the starting was pretty much urgh.
i had no idea what is going on with the staring and so on.
plus, Edward Cullen don't really look that great when he stares!
love all his smiling scenes.
he do really look cute when he smiles.
i think he would be better much off as Cedric in Harry Porter.
my favorite scene would be the baseball scene.
that was awesome!
i like the Cullen's house!
i wish i would own a house like that but in Malaysia, i can only dream on!

had a new haircut and i looked bad ><
never mind.
i am going to let it grow long again!

will be going to uni later.
to find out why on earth are they increasing the fees.
just questioning no arguing!

gah!
i am going to get some oranges :D

Labels: disappintment, mess not, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sucky line, tired, you

i am feeling now.
studying like mad
shopped like mad as well.
not me shop obviously.
it was brother.
his new gaming rig.

not feeling well

Labels: disappintment, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired, tired.

spent almost my whole day at +wondermilk®
let the pictures talk!
captions would be guiding you all (:
kinda tired now ><




the back of my phone :P



i know! massive destruction of BEAUTY!



me and the boyf!
were in Secret Recipe having lunch with mom and bro before the event started.



drink more milk!



MORE MORE MILK!!



pretty little "angpau"!
no money, or milk :D
they gave out lucky draw numbers
as well as
free coupons for a box of 4 petites,
and free coupons for Mingo Mingo ice cream!
yummylicious!



this was BEFORE the crowd ok?



where you get your "angpaus",
free cupcake tattoos, and
registerations for the cupcake design competition.



the garage sales.







they invited VJ Marion as well as
some cool awesome bands to perform!



haha!
me in the cupcakes design competition!
this was the preliminary round.
they limited it to only 16 people.
a simple fee of RM5 was charged.
there were 4 rounds and one winner (:



i don't know what to say.
my hands were SHAKING!
haha.
first timer!



i did very detailed cupcake designs
where else some of the rest were sprinkling sprinkles like kids ><



it was very kan cheong!
cause i almost ran out of time to put the cupcakes into the box!
the rules were simple,
(lol. now only tell rules!)
you were given 10 minutes to design 4 cupcakes
as well as
putting those cupcakes into a box.
cupcakes will be judged based on creativity,
neatness, how you play with the color,
and originality!



i was one of the finalists (:
waiting for it to start.



i basically did a rainbow kind of thing.
you can see it at the right :D



HAHA!
i won, somehow.



i won second ><
despite some people told me that i could have bagged the champion easily.
prolly it was cause there was THIS GIRL,
she messed up my cupcakes design,
WITH HER DANGLING NECKLACE!
i feel like murdering her.
there goes my Colorsplash Lomography!



ok so second is not THAT bad.
but i still want the champion!!
want to know what i designed?
heh.
scroll more la :D
the first one is the preliminary round's cupcakes.
the bottom one is the finals.
you can see the destroyed part if you click on the picture.








ok. so this is how i spent my weekend.
i am still displeased with the results.
it was judged by VJ Marion.
i think i better shaddup.

Labels: angry., disappintment, estacyly happy, ǝɟıl, food, luck, mess not, pictures, random, ranty rant rants, sleepy, tired, tired.

51km more to Kuala Lumpur :D
and i am typing this using wordpad.
(originally was Ms Word03 till i had to correct EVERYTHING i typed ><)
HAHA!
weather is terrible.
what more terrible is that the car smoked in between Ipoh to Tapah.
turns out that the fan's carbon worn off!
went in to Tapah and had it fixed for RM280 ><
we were pretty lucky as the guy knows what he is doing.
plus, he was doing a rush job overhauling a Proton.
took the trunk road till Slim River and exit out to highway.
then, that is when the weather starts getting bad.
it rained SO heavy that
the opposite road had 4 cars buttsecks-ing each other.
the damages were pretty awfully pain too.
*ouch*
there were pretty many inconsiderate drivers as well.
braking like it is their father's road.
cut in and out of the lane like they are invincible.

i landed myself with flu and headache ><
AGAIN!
the flu was so bad that it actually pulled my head.
i remembered someone asking me why am i sick for so long.
i guess it was cause of the workload.
things that keep me busy, keeps me slim.
HAHAHA!

Hentian Sebelah Rawang 1km.

the boyf has quite a lot of seaweeds with him.
courtesy of his parents who just came back from their 1 week vacation.
2 days in Shanghai and 5 days in Korea.
apparently,
they weren't that pleased as there was a tour guide guiding them.
(his parents are rather those that i-wanna-explore-myself type)
what more funny was that,
in Shanghai they went to this factory that produces pills.
pills for sickness, all kinds i presume.
then there is this Chinese doctor, tabib,
did a palm check
*you know like those days back in China kind of thing*
for both of his parents
and said that his father's liver is BAD.
lol!!
you can guess what happened next.
that tabib recommended one whole bunch of pills to his dad!
his mom?
sparkling clean healthy!

Kuala Lumpur 33km.

this whole week going back to Ipoh was rather tiring.
it makes no different than those days in KL.
i regretted not eating more Chee Cheong Fun.
i regretted not having more sandwiches at Char Yong.
i regretted not getting more liu fun at the famous big tree.
i regretted not savouring the banana leaf rice at Anderson.
i regretted not slurping the delicious Mango Lolo at Tong Sui Street.
oh those delicious food!
don't ask me why no kai see hor fun.
it is not delicious as how it used to be.
before they got all famed and so,
they were serving pretty delicious kai see hor fun.
clear and no MSG soup,
nice crunchy taugehs,
soft and smooth chicken!
it was SO yummy, BACK THEN.
now?
everything changed.
the last time i had it was 2 years back.
it wasn't that mind blowing anymore.
but i always love Ipoh's chee cheong fun.
the nice mushroom sauce with the red sweet sauce.
i am so hungry now ><

Susur Masuk ke Restoran Jejantas 500m

oh well :)
guess i am reaching soon and time to off lappie :)
the sky is clear and colorful.
how i wish i brought my camera along and snapped it.
oh and MrBrinjal,
thanks for telling me that D60 dropped RM1k!
in any case,
it makes no difference cause i am getting it next year!
and it might be a D40!
wait till i got money la!
then we can go out every weekend snap pictures!
WAHAHAHAHA!

this was written on 5th of Oct

Labels: disappintment, entertaining, estacyly happy, ǝɟıl, food, him, home, life, love, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired., trip, you

i was terribly sick yesterday with sky high temperature, 39 degrees.
after drinking 3L of water within 6 hours,
and a very good night's sleep
(minus the fact that my nose can't breathe at all!),
plus with lots of TLC (Tender Loving Care),
i am miraculously feeling better today.
well, not for the cough and flu bit ><
i hate flu.
it is very annoying and depressing sometimes.

i don't know why the boyf always draw crooked hearts for me.
first, he made a crooked heart for me using some metal wire.
then he draws me crooked hearts.
i wonder if his love for me crooked or not le?
lol lol lol lol!

to be exactly honest,
i am feeling really bored right now.
i have nothing to do.
no clothes to fold.
no plates to wash.
and the flu is getting on my nerves.
i can't sleep at all!

ok.
i want to complain about my lousy group members!
i know no one from my college reads this.
or maybe my course mates?
heck!
like i care.
i am just stating the fact,
if you don't like it then don't do it la!!
as easy as ABC.

anyway, i asked them all to email me the slides for our presentation this Friday
and only one of them sent!
so, i sms all 4 of them yesterday night asking them to send.
2 did not reply my sms at all.
the one that sent told me she sent but i can't view the attached file.
the other one is giving me very lame excuses!
so, i told them to send it to me today.
and till now,
i got nuts whey!
SEE!
this is why i like doing individual presentations!
you don't have to worry about shyts like these!
i might as well just walk forward this Friday
and do it myself?!
plus, this is not a HARD presentation at all!
it is just very easy management presentation on POLC
(Planning Organizing Leading Controlling)!
not hard at all right?

in any case,
i have a back up plan of my own.
since i am at home, still sick,
i plan to use my time and do the slides myself!
i shall do the presentation ALONE
if these stupid people don't send to me by tonight!
i seriously don't have much time to proof read and all
that is why i asked them to send it to me yesterday.

anyway,
i am going to do the slides now.
i care nuts about them.
i am better off working alone anyway.

Labels: angry., assignments, class, disappintment, mess not, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

Victoria Secret Hale Bob Platform Pump
Orig. $120, Clearance $69.99

it was ♥ at first sight!
such beautiful babes!
especially the one with floral prints :D
now i wish i am rich.
o'wells.

Labels: disappintment, pictures, random, ranty rant rants

so Langkawi trip is over.
and i dare say i did not enjoy half of it.
the other half i would like to thank my
baby, mom and sister for helping me to make it through.
not forgetting,
also some of my friends who really put their hearts out
into making this trip a real success.
for those who did not do anything at all,
shame on yourself!
i wrote a 5k words of report on those who did not fulfill their duties.
i even credited those who really should be credited.
and yes, names were mentioned!
no one is spared AT ALL.

done my ongoing tour report and submitted it today already.
now, only my post tour report left :)
feeling kinda happy.
Venezuela is one more day ahead
and after that,
i am free!

it would be very nice,
if you are a little bit more appreciative.

Labels: assignments, disappintment, him, random, ranty rant rants, tired, tired.

LOOK.
i never intend to usurp your position,
neither am i trying to be nice to you.
BUT heck, girl!
you better pick up some manners!
you really REALLY pisses me off sometimes!
and i am warning you, girl,
you better step off my tail
before i come and destroy yours!

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many has been happening lately.
wait.
i rephrase.
A LOT of unhappy things happened lately.
from lacking of cooperations between two sides,
to misunderstanding that cause hatred.
i guess team work are pretty much useless in this sense
since everyone is trying to show/prove something
and friendliness seemed to disappeared to somewhere
and it is only one thing that remains the same,
we still have to work on it together.
yes, together.

i hope next time,
i am sane enough to even blog!

Labels: assignments, disappintment, random, ranty rant rants, sick, sleepy, tired, tired.

the world never stop revolving.
neither time would stop for a second.
if only wishes would come true.
if only dreams were reality.
loneliness grasping her breath.
a dream that dangles on a string.
a wish that is too good to be true.
deep down inside,
she know that this dream of hers,
this wish of hers,
is always just another fairytale.



p/s: considerably emo and not in a good mood.

Labels: disappintment, life, luck, random, ranty rant rants, tired, tired.