I know you've suffered,
But I don't want you to hide,
It's cold and loveless,
I won't let you be denied

Soothing,
I'll make you feel pure,
Trust me,
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers,
That you're wicked and divine,
You may be a sinner,
But your innocence is mine

Please me,
Show me how it's done,
Tease me,
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

i know i hadn't been updating. final semester is crazy! too many work to be done, too many assignments piling up. i am trying hard to reduce the piles. currently i am rushing on my SWE report. urgh. honstly, must everything be in essay?!

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spent almost my whole day at +wondermilk®
let the pictures talk!
captions would be guiding you all (:
kinda tired now ><




the back of my phone :P



i know! massive destruction of BEAUTY!



me and the boyf!
were in Secret Recipe having lunch with mom and bro before the event started.



drink more milk!



MORE MORE MILK!!



pretty little "angpau"!
no money, or milk :D
they gave out lucky draw numbers
as well as
free coupons for a box of 4 petites,
and free coupons for Mingo Mingo ice cream!
yummylicious!



this was BEFORE the crowd ok?



where you get your "angpaus",
free cupcake tattoos, and
registerations for the cupcake design competition.



the garage sales.







they invited VJ Marion as well as
some cool awesome bands to perform!



haha!
me in the cupcakes design competition!
this was the preliminary round.
they limited it to only 16 people.
a simple fee of RM5 was charged.
there were 4 rounds and one winner (:



i don't know what to say.
my hands were SHAKING!
haha.
first timer!



i did very detailed cupcake designs
where else some of the rest were sprinkling sprinkles like kids ><



it was very kan cheong!
cause i almost ran out of time to put the cupcakes into the box!
the rules were simple,
(lol. now only tell rules!)
you were given 10 minutes to design 4 cupcakes
as well as
putting those cupcakes into a box.
cupcakes will be judged based on creativity,
neatness, how you play with the color,
and originality!



i was one of the finalists (:
waiting for it to start.



i basically did a rainbow kind of thing.
you can see it at the right :D



HAHA!
i won, somehow.



i won second ><
despite some people told me that i could have bagged the champion easily.
prolly it was cause there was THIS GIRL,
she messed up my cupcakes design,
WITH HER DANGLING NECKLACE!
i feel like murdering her.
there goes my Colorsplash Lomography!



ok so second is not THAT bad.
but i still want the champion!!
want to know what i designed?
heh.
scroll more la :D
the first one is the preliminary round's cupcakes.
the bottom one is the finals.
you can see the destroyed part if you click on the picture.








ok. so this is how i spent my weekend.
i am still displeased with the results.
it was judged by VJ Marion.
i think i better shaddup.

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51km more to Kuala Lumpur :D
and i am typing this using wordpad.
(originally was Ms Word03 till i had to correct EVERYTHING i typed ><)
HAHA!
weather is terrible.
what more terrible is that the car smoked in between Ipoh to Tapah.
turns out that the fan's carbon worn off!
went in to Tapah and had it fixed for RM280 ><
we were pretty lucky as the guy knows what he is doing.
plus, he was doing a rush job overhauling a Proton.
took the trunk road till Slim River and exit out to highway.
then, that is when the weather starts getting bad.
it rained SO heavy that
the opposite road had 4 cars buttsecks-ing each other.
the damages were pretty awfully pain too.
*ouch*
there were pretty many inconsiderate drivers as well.
braking like it is their father's road.
cut in and out of the lane like they are invincible.

i landed myself with flu and headache ><
AGAIN!
the flu was so bad that it actually pulled my head.
i remembered someone asking me why am i sick for so long.
i guess it was cause of the workload.
things that keep me busy, keeps me slim.
HAHAHA!

Hentian Sebelah Rawang 1km.

the boyf has quite a lot of seaweeds with him.
courtesy of his parents who just came back from their 1 week vacation.
2 days in Shanghai and 5 days in Korea.
apparently,
they weren't that pleased as there was a tour guide guiding them.
(his parents are rather those that i-wanna-explore-myself type)
what more funny was that,
in Shanghai they went to this factory that produces pills.
pills for sickness, all kinds i presume.
then there is this Chinese doctor, tabib,
did a palm check
*you know like those days back in China kind of thing*
for both of his parents
and said that his father's liver is BAD.
lol!!
you can guess what happened next.
that tabib recommended one whole bunch of pills to his dad!
his mom?
sparkling clean healthy!

Kuala Lumpur 33km.

this whole week going back to Ipoh was rather tiring.
it makes no different than those days in KL.
i regretted not eating more Chee Cheong Fun.
i regretted not having more sandwiches at Char Yong.
i regretted not getting more liu fun at the famous big tree.
i regretted not savouring the banana leaf rice at Anderson.
i regretted not slurping the delicious Mango Lolo at Tong Sui Street.
oh those delicious food!
don't ask me why no kai see hor fun.
it is not delicious as how it used to be.
before they got all famed and so,
they were serving pretty delicious kai see hor fun.
clear and no MSG soup,
nice crunchy taugehs,
soft and smooth chicken!
it was SO yummy, BACK THEN.
now?
everything changed.
the last time i had it was 2 years back.
it wasn't that mind blowing anymore.
but i always love Ipoh's chee cheong fun.
the nice mushroom sauce with the red sweet sauce.
i am so hungry now ><

Susur Masuk ke Restoran Jejantas 500m

oh well :)
guess i am reaching soon and time to off lappie :)
the sky is clear and colorful.
how i wish i brought my camera along and snapped it.
oh and MrBrinjal,
thanks for telling me that D60 dropped RM1k!
in any case,
it makes no difference cause i am getting it next year!
and it might be a D40!
wait till i got money la!
then we can go out every weekend snap pictures!
WAHAHAHAHA!

this was written on 5th of Oct

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the problem with boys is that they never grow up.
they are always stuck with their childhood fantasies.
from cars to gaming to cars!
but now,
they got new fantasy, a new toy!
a DSLR!
BOYS!
plus, not all of them take good pictures!
i mean some does but they can't really convey the message in it.
the picture is just plain dead like that.
waste of money.

will be traveling back to KL later at 3pm.
for further information,
please call: 03 - *** **** and ask for the HR management.
kthxbai!

RAWR!
i am tired.



be my love, baby.
be with me, honey.

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i swear ASSURE you that i am damn worn out right now!

realizing that i had not blogged since 17/09!

that is like 9 days whey!

and what have i been doing for the past 9 days?!

assignments/assessments, car broke down!!, classes and MORE CLASSES!

i need a break.

from the many things that i am facing now.

money is crucial cause i have BIG PLANS WITH IT!

i hope it doesn't fail ><



weeks ago, D taught me how to ask dad for a DSLR

and i actually thought about it for a couple of times

BUT what made me snapped out of it was,

"this is what i want so this is what i will earn" phrase.

yes, i am still into that D60 (RM2200 with kit).

wait till D90 is out.

it won't be RM2200 anymore but maybe RM2000!



my college's HR (Human Resource) sucks!

Raya holidays only 2 miserable days!

we have classes on Monday (29Sep), Tuesday (30Sep) and Friday (03Oct).

and our Raya holidays are only Wednesday (01Oct) and Thursday (02Oct)!

WTH!

they expect us, the outstation students, to travel to and fro like that!

you think we very rich ar?

universal cuckoos!



i hope things runs smoothly tomorrow.

the car could not start on Monday.

had to change the parts in the starter.

then, they screwed up the gear box ><

and they kind of blamed us for it!

they asked us like 10 times

whether the gear box was like that before it broke down.

it is MY car and i have been WITH IT for almost 16 YEARS!

you think i know nuts ar!!

even dad say the car's gear box is THE BEST!

were supposed to send the car back to them today

cause they called a electrician over after figuring out NUTS for an entire day!

but we did not send the car back to them.

mom wanted to send the car to the old trustworthy guy, which is in Ipoh

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keep me warm and safe && this is all i asked.

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how many times in your life that you actually stop
and wonder what am i doing in my life?
and where am i leading my life to?
or maybe you ask yourself is this what i wanted?
questions of life which we never ask ourselves.
how much did you actually stop and ponder?
are you sure of your objective and your goals?
are you sure this is the way you want to lead your life?
or maybe you want to explore and seek a bit
instead of doing this boring routine everyday?
life is short.
heard it, seen it but ever thought about it?
how much special is our life compared to others?
wake up early in the morning, go uni/work,
work work work, come back home and plunge yourself in front of your laptop/com.
well, how special is this life then?
what about our childhood dreams?
the one we always say out loud, when i grow up i wanna do this this this that!
we, the 21st century people.
we, the generation that only cares about money and power.
we, the generation that forgets the value of life.
we, the generation that takes things for granted.
we, the generation that never learns how to appreciate.
Money No Enough II.
a movie which i thought was a comedy at first.
Jack Neo is a brilliant director.
he hits us on about our daily life.
about our family.
about how we take things for granted.
about how we forget the small things that matters
and only look for the big things!
most importantly,
he is trying to voice out how our generation has become.
how we, this generation forgets the family value, the value of life.
my point is?
without family,
what is the purpose of our life?
we take things for granted,
we pushed our family aside for money and power,
we never look back
and think of what sacrifices our parents made.
this is us,
the current generation,
the 21st century people,
the people that never appreciate.
no matter how much power you had,
no matter how many zeros your account had,
nothing is bigger than family.

i wish for a D60 as my Christmas present.

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