내 머리는 너무나 나빠서. 너 하나밖에 난 모르고. 너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아. 니가 너무 생각나는 날엔

not late yet still the first day of Chinese New Year! will be going back to KL on Wednesday as i have loads of projects waiting for me >< depressing. please please please do drive carefully as i have witnessed many accidents on the highway during my journey back from KL to Ipoh. remember your love ones! don't break their hearts! ooo! i can smell those nice nice pineapple tarts waiting for me! not forgetting,

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on and off i feel like giving up. there is just too much running around in my head and most of the time, i feel like breaking. i felt torn apart. bah. i have only been back in uni for 2 weeks and i am already giving up. i am giving up on the people that fell and refuse to stand back up again. i am giving up on people that do not value the happiness they have right now. i am giving up on people that are already giving up. i find it pointless to help those who fall but refuse to pick themselves back. not that i did not help. i did but then, they fall again. they refuse to face what they should be facing. i am already very tired. i really need a long weekend. a nice long break.

i have an obsession with antique keys. i think that they are very charmingly created. they are very sophisticated and their designs are breathtaking. i wanted to get one, or maybe a bunch.



gorgeous aye? they are so so so much nicer than the ones we have now. i think i love antique stuffs. i found one website that sells antiques items such as Victorian Jewelry 1837-1901, Swiss Jewelry circa 1915 and more. you can get them at Morning Glory Antiques & Jewelry provided if you have a paypal account and you are rich enough to actually pay in US Dolars. 1 USD = 3.57892 MYR. HAHA! if anyone is buying, i want one also!

p/s: i am in the lab now waiting till 4.30 and then i got some stupid sharing session for the SWE/ Internship. gah!

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11 more days

Three people killed by foot massage machines



So, we're not really sure what's going on here, but three people have been killed by mis-using a Japanese foot massager. We've only got specific details about one death, which happened when a woman removed the protective cloth cover from the machine -- called the Shape-up Roller 2 -- then strangled herself when it got caught on her collar as she tried to use it on her neck. The manufacturer, Matoba Electric, issued a warning against removing the cover or using the device other than as directed, but has not yet recalled the device, which seems to be powerful enough to massage the tension out of a T-Rex's feet. We've got a feeling there won't be a Shape-up Roller 3 anytime soon. Video of a Japanese news broadcast about the accidents after the break.

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unexplainable happy today! haha! ok. i should not be happy but hey, why look at the unhappy side? this happiness comes with great amount of money that soon will be gone! HAHA! so, the car's drive belt came loose and then after much of inspection by the mechanics, they found the water pump jammed. the cost to fix this? unpredictably a lot cause the parts of my car are pretty much imported from Singapore/Japan. cross fingers that they could find a replacement or else *fill in the blank*. but because of this, someone could not go to work! ok. i am VERY mean.

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51km more to Kuala Lumpur :D
and i am typing this using wordpad.
(originally was Ms Word03 till i had to correct EVERYTHING i typed ><)
HAHA!
weather is terrible.
what more terrible is that the car smoked in between Ipoh to Tapah.
turns out that the fan's carbon worn off!
went in to Tapah and had it fixed for RM280 ><
we were pretty lucky as the guy knows what he is doing.
plus, he was doing a rush job overhauling a Proton.
took the trunk road till Slim River and exit out to highway.
then, that is when the weather starts getting bad.
it rained SO heavy that
the opposite road had 4 cars buttsecks-ing each other.
the damages were pretty awfully pain too.
*ouch*
there were pretty many inconsiderate drivers as well.
braking like it is their father's road.
cut in and out of the lane like they are invincible.

i landed myself with flu and headache ><
AGAIN!
the flu was so bad that it actually pulled my head.
i remembered someone asking me why am i sick for so long.
i guess it was cause of the workload.
things that keep me busy, keeps me slim.
HAHAHA!

Hentian Sebelah Rawang 1km.

the boyf has quite a lot of seaweeds with him.
courtesy of his parents who just came back from their 1 week vacation.
2 days in Shanghai and 5 days in Korea.
apparently,
they weren't that pleased as there was a tour guide guiding them.
(his parents are rather those that i-wanna-explore-myself type)
what more funny was that,
in Shanghai they went to this factory that produces pills.
pills for sickness, all kinds i presume.
then there is this Chinese doctor, tabib,
did a palm check
*you know like those days back in China kind of thing*
for both of his parents
and said that his father's liver is BAD.
lol!!
you can guess what happened next.
that tabib recommended one whole bunch of pills to his dad!
his mom?
sparkling clean healthy!

Kuala Lumpur 33km.

this whole week going back to Ipoh was rather tiring.
it makes no different than those days in KL.
i regretted not eating more Chee Cheong Fun.
i regretted not having more sandwiches at Char Yong.
i regretted not getting more liu fun at the famous big tree.
i regretted not savouring the banana leaf rice at Anderson.
i regretted not slurping the delicious Mango Lolo at Tong Sui Street.
oh those delicious food!
don't ask me why no kai see hor fun.
it is not delicious as how it used to be.
before they got all famed and so,
they were serving pretty delicious kai see hor fun.
clear and no MSG soup,
nice crunchy taugehs,
soft and smooth chicken!
it was SO yummy, BACK THEN.
now?
everything changed.
the last time i had it was 2 years back.
it wasn't that mind blowing anymore.
but i always love Ipoh's chee cheong fun.
the nice mushroom sauce with the red sweet sauce.
i am so hungry now ><

Susur Masuk ke Restoran Jejantas 500m

oh well :)
guess i am reaching soon and time to off lappie :)
the sky is clear and colorful.
how i wish i brought my camera along and snapped it.
oh and MrBrinjal,
thanks for telling me that D60 dropped RM1k!
in any case,
it makes no difference cause i am getting it next year!
and it might be a D40!
wait till i got money la!
then we can go out every weekend snap pictures!
WAHAHAHAHA!

this was written on 5th of Oct

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going back to Ipoh for Trailblazer
:)

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my stomach hurts,
my head hurts,
my whole body aching.
ish!
today is 1st of June.
trials for Business is on 6th.
finals is on 23rd.
YES LA.
ALL IN THIS MONTH!
curse June.

so many things to look forward for this week.
Jamie's birthday on Friday night.
baby's gramps 60th wedding anniversary lunch on Sunday.
*i think it is 60th cause that is what baby told me*
reason why it is lunch cause most are coming from KL
and monday is a working day.
so therefore,
lunch to avoid the hassle.
hope i got the reason part right.
more or less like that.

there are like so many things in my head,
so much that sometimes
when baby talking to me,
it did not registered in my head.
*sorry sayang. i love you.*

i have somehow became the graphic designer
or something something for the Venezuela week.
more responsibility
= more headache
= less time spent doing my own things.

i have 2 assignments that has to be done in 1 week.
i got a presentation next week.
i got extra class every Thursday morning at 8.30am.
time to sleep are like getting way lesser.
been sleeping at midnight or latest by 1am every night.
and then waking up at 8am every morning.
and grab 4 hours of afternoon nap.
wth.

not to mention,
the Langkawi tour which is end of this month.
and also
the Venezuela week at the first week of July.
urgh.
i have like so many more things
that i haven't done yet!!

the one and only time where
i warn everyone not to disturb me
about college issue is on weekends.
so, yea.
i am really into weekends now.
everyday seemed to be a burden on my shoulder.
i find it hard to concentrate in classes now.
there are just too many!

i like staying at home nowadays.
going out makes my head ache.
i rather stay at home,
watch Futurama or play COD4.
you know,
spending some quality time.
going to the malls seemed to give me head ache.

yesterday i went to 1U for 1hours
and for some weird reason,
my head was ripping apart!
the pain was so excruciating that i almost wanna cry.
iono.
maybe home is where i find my solitude now.
where i actually get to be lazy!

one month passed.
2 months holiday,
i am waiting for it.

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talk about hectic.
i am really driving myself crazy!
2 assignments down like finally.
IT and BE2.
english sucks and english lessons are for noobs!

the boyf destroyed my "f" key.
which means when i type fuck, it becomes uck instead.
thus, i make it 'uck.
sounds far far far away from fuck.
but heck,
like i use it anyway.
but there are a lot of words i type with f.
like of, off, far, from, for and etc etc
it is not totally destroyed.
i can still use it,
if i press hard enough.

signed up for Adventure Race 2008!
they remembered our team, IPOHKIA.
haha.
the one and only team who made it from the last to the seventh!
wanna know why last?
cause i fainted halfway while running up to the 20th floor rocked!
we had very big portion of nasi campur Melayu before the race.
so, it is bad to eat full full before the race.
this year, i am all prepared!
some more it is outside Selangor.
2 days 1 night!
haha.
my mom is even more excited than me.
she loves these kind of races and never misses Amazing Race.

oh oh and!
paintball on upcoming Saturday morning!

i am going back home tomorrow, Friday.
;)

oh and if you wait long enough,
there are these pretty green little sprinkles falling out from the cursor!

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i got internet already!
haha.
seriously,
this is like the first time i wonder what i should do first.


:P


fired up Azureus!
haha.
life is good with internet.
plus it is wireless.
which means i can online in the toilet everywhere!
shiok 101!

oh and i have like loads of nice new pictures.
i think i am going to load them in tonight.
just a bit of sneak peek in my new house.



THERE'S A ROACH IN THE KITCHEN!
urgh! disgusting.


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edited at 2325

photoshop frenzy!

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in starbucks now.
damn no life la.
the contractor came yesterday and he kinda fixed the phone line like within 10 second?
then only i realize i am paying RM30 for nothing??
and now there is this problem where the phone line is undetectable
and i think i have to pay extra?
like for about RM100?
for new wiring?
i am so gonna take it from the UFund.
i am not going to take out RM100 for it.

classes are dread boring.
lecturers starting to go more dull and boring.
but TATOB is kinda lame.
not the lesson but the lecturer itself.
a Chinese educated lecturer who is pursuing PHD.
apparently he wanna make himself erm.
i forgotten what is the word for it.
just that he wanna see till how far he can achieve.
*shrugs shrugs*

there is nothing much i can do at home now.
i should really like thank god for the tv,
if not i will be collecting spider web everyday.

oh and i bump into Philip.
the SMI guy that goes to CGBC.
apparently he is in Taylors, SJ.
still as cocky as ever but his hair is like longer than his face.
make him look more like a pervert.
wait!
he is already one.

gah!

boredom kills
and it really do.

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finally an update!
the contractor came this morning.
so, i assume soon enough i would be able to online.
money has been flying away from my pocket like real fast.
well, not my money la
but still, it is money.
classes are boring as usual.
tomorrow French exam.
damn!
i am so dead meat.
;(

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someone bunuh me please. i came back home from work, air con spoilt, internet connection suxx and tomorrow is gonna be another day. today work suxx. seriously kan, i never thought i would ask someone to shut the fuck up, bitch. she is worst than being a pain in the ass and being a pain in the ass won't even fit a tad bit of that situation. damn clever in instructing people to do work where else she herself just stood there watching. so what if she's the supervisor? FYI, i've got like 6 supervisors ok? even the other 5 supervisors were more of a help than that fat bitch. i was sending food out and she asked me to clear table 3. so i did. halfway clearing, she asked me to send bill to table 15. that is just the small bit of an example of what happened. damn. i am not mad anymore. haha. so nothing to complain already la.

sometimes, i think i know a bit too much of other people's secrets. it frightens me at the same time. i'm scared i'll leak it out but so far i only leaked it out to 2 persons; mom and the boyf. few years back, the secret won't even last an hour. few years later, now, it somehow lasts longer than i expected. maybe cause i lost interest in telling others? or prolly cause i wanna gain trust in others and help them out of it? i don't know.


管他金窩銀窩
怎樣都比不過彼此的心窩
打包一箱溫柔
今後多多指教就相互寬容
你心窩做我的新窩
暖氣不需要使用
我已經溫暖到 融化所有冷漠

Who cares whether it's gold nest or silver nest
It can't compare with our nest
Pack a box of gentleness
From now on, we'll listen to each other so we can be tolerant toward one another
Let your heart be my new nest
I don't need to use the heater
I'm already warm enough to melt any cold indifference

sometimes, i question myself, why i wanna work part time. the one and only reasoning reason that managed to convince while keep me going is that; so i won't need to use my parents' money to buy things i need. most of the time i really wanna give up. for instance today, i really wanna throw everything down and walk out but it kinda made me think twice. you know, the money. so i told myself, stop being such an ass and keep on going. the boyf didn't know about this but i think he will when he reads this. i almost cried when i see him. i almost did

wanna know a secret? i "accidentally" cried while cutting onions today after my bro came over to visit me.

selfishly, i wanna be yours only.

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me blogging from college. ok la. i know it is a no biggie fact. first day of college, everything can tahan. today second day, i cannot tahan already. waking up at 7am every morning = suicuide. have to stay in college latest till 4.30 = in hell already. about my part time job, i kinda like that place =) i mean seriously kan, people pay about 20rm per meal including drinks and yet i got it for free for ALL my meals! some more, i get to choose from 4 choices and i tell you kan, the meals that they give us choose are no lesser than 10rm. haha. the enviroment is like heaven. everyone is helpful and yeahlah. nothing to complain. me just wanna brag about my meals only. and during public holidays like CNY, Hari Raya, Deepavali, and etc, if i work, i get triple pay! and they have this employee something something, make it short, a 100rm bonus *beams*

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sometimes the best thing in life comes in pieces.

or that is what i think. i don't feel like explaining it or anything. feeling kind of depressed but happy. funny feeling i know. discounting today, i got like 3 more days till the Dubai day. the boyf doesn't seemed so happy. he looked kinda down. we made plans for the coming 3 days *crosses fingers* i seriously want to spend those 3 days curling up on the bed with him. no outing no dating. just sleep next to him. ah. simple things makes me smile from ear to ear just like a fat kid got a piece of cake after 3 days. it is called ADDICTION.

nah. another emo post. i should be happy. i get to see my dad. it is like a 50-50 thing. i really really want to see my dad. i actually want the boyf to come with me to Dubai. wait till the boyf is 21 and he got his own passport.

raise my hand and wave goodbye
i tell myself i will be alright
another hour i will be sky high
doing my best to hold on tight
i close my eyes and come back down
lose myself inside your smile
and stay there for awhile.

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IPOH~

back in Ipoh already. will be leaving for Dubai on Thursday and coming back on *thinks* i forgotten. less than two weeks but more than a week? haha. seriously, i got bad memory. anyway how, Pui San will be leaving for Shanghai 2 days earlier than me which makes it Tuesday? fyi, Pui San is Aaron's goddess. she will be coming back 2 days earlier than me also. i guess this is the time where i say LOL. oh and my PSP rawks. i love it heaps heaps heaps! haha. the boyf loves it. bro loves it too. sister loves it too. haha. not much of an update though cause there is nothing much for me to update? oh and my eye itches. gran say it was because of garlic O.o

you are so near yet so far. i miss you badly ;(

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i onlined using MY psp this morning :P i logged into my lelong account, read online comic (sinfest), wikipedia (for some last minute information before my presentation began. haha.) oh and i even blogged :P through MY psp. i tried to save it but somehow, the file seemed to be missing O.o weird, i know. my presentation somehow somewhat screwed up. before i present kan, the fonts couldn't be read. tulan whey. i mean, before i even started to talk, i got so discouraged by the slides whey. worst is that i DIDN'T even write it out. so i have to talk depending on my memory referring to the slides (which is like so picture less.) i got the all about India right like the capital, largest city, population, currency and so. BUT i got the independence wrong. haha. not the dates la. got 2 dates. that is the prob. one is 15 August 1497 and the other is something January 1950. the August wan is the declaration but i lupa the January wan. haha. only when Rowa (i don't know how to spell her name but it is pronounced that way. believe it or not, she spell my name Sera -______________-) say maybe i should try to change the fonts. haha. it worked. the January wan was actually republic -________________- wah si beh song lo. haha. but so far everything was doing fine. haha. so i am like safe? god knows la. haha. anyway how, i am in RayLeong's place now. Alam Damai, Cheras. haha. here for the night market, Taman Connaught. HAHA. ok la. i think i wanna take a nap la. oh yea, did i mention that i am drowning in the pile of assessments? yes i am. someone bunuh me please. i already do not have enough sleep. *yawns* next week, DUBAI!!!!

i have been waiting for this moment. the moment where i could meet you.

Labels: class, home, life, luck, ranty rant rants, tired

somehow, after my dad left for Dubai (not for good), i haven't seen him since the beginning of June or so if my memory hasn't yet gone rusty on me, he has been very semangat-ly sending us photos of himself in Dubai and i also a tad bit semangat-ly update my blog. if not, this would have long been declared as MATI KATAK. yes. none of my blogs lasted more than 3 months or maybe less. anyway how, since the connection at where i am residing is terribly terrible, thus i decided to find one night where i could tahan till 2am so that i could online, load the pictures and blog. it was tough for me though but somehow, i managed to do it today.

thanks to the 4 hours nap in the evening which caused me to miss my jogging.

what i've always learnt is that, best things are good to be shared. sharing is caring! shayang's favorite sentence when he wants to cilok some of my stuff :P these 2 pictures were the source of my laughter in this hour of the day which i think most prolly has awakened most of my house mates (:

i laughed like a hyena when i saw this picture.

and when i saw this, i laughed way worst than a hyena -.-

seems like my dad really enjoyed life to the fullest in Dubai. he eats great food and food that he used to label as junk food, he now knows better to love it than to label it. haha.

this is my dad who loves to crawl on the floor to disturb me and my sister. who loves to act all kiddy and silly suddenly, sometimes very monkey-ish. who loves to show "affection" in a very pervert-ish kind of way. who loves to cut his nose hair while watching tv. who isn't stylish but very chebeh (as in very sloppy). who think McD, KFC, Pizza Hut, sausages, Ramli burgers and etc are junk food (but i think he changes his perspective now). who loves to suddenly come up to me or my sister asking what color is his face/tongue. who never feels embarrass to eat loudly and noisily. and yup. this is my dad. the list could go on forever but then again i have to stop. why? cause he reads my blog *blushes* and to pa, i love you loads (: see you in Dubai soon k?

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i stood there as i saw 3 ladies walking in with a heavy loaded trolley. different from age, i see 3 generations there. oldest, older and old. i did what i have to do; the usual. i greeted the oldest, pohpoh, only cause but then, she resembles my late great grandmother. old but hyper. when i placed the menu down, she asked for a glass of water cause she said she could feel her throat drying up quickly. she wanted something cold. she asked me if the longan drink has real longans in it. i smiled and said sorry, i'm not sure. then i offered a cup of hot green tea and she asked me is it free. i smiled and said yes and quickly get 3 cups of hot green tea. "is there anything which is spicy enough for me?" she asked in Cantonese. i recommended this very particular set; Spicy Chicken Set cause i think it would be good enough for her as it comes with carrot slices, chopped button mushrooms and bean sprouts. there was also a bowl of hot spicy soup with 2 pieces of Spicy Chicken Sushi. she liked it but she asked me again in Cantonese "pohpoh like very spicy food. is it spicy enough?" i nodded and suggested to add some chili padi in it. she pulled me up every time i passed by her. she sparked up a conversation which left me standing there for an hour. "you look very much like a great granddaughter of mine, Joyce, her name. you're friendly and i feel very close to you. i like you very much. you like to smile. you're very pretty." those were what she told me as i just stood there and listened to each and everything with a smile. she told me she like durians and she bought a lot, big and cheap ones in the supermarket just now. she offered me a packet but i refused to take it. she asked me not to be shy and she pushed it in my hands. petite, fragile yet hyper and alert old lady. she just reminds me of my great grandmother. then i realize that everything that has a beginning must have an end to it. what if i don't want it to end? i wanted it to last till my memory fails me, till my soul lost its way home, till my body ashes was being blown around the world, or maybe till the dooms day. "whenever my granddaughter (the old one) is not at home, pohpoh can't eat anything at all. i really love my granddaughter. then maybe that time i will come here and eat and you will talk to me." she made me feel like i'm a part of her family; like i'm a part of her. sadly, yes, i do feel like i'm a part of her family. it makes me home sick. made me remember times where my parents, my siblings, my grandmother and my late grandmother sit around in the small living room for a session of steamboat. home made steamboat using rice cooker. that was the time, back then, where everything though is small but comfortable. where we are all like one. as we age, people go away, the house became empty and cold. the warmness just left the house. who remembers the past?

the pohpoh, older and old left. before pohpoh left, "Karen. that's my name. Karen. remember me." she really makes me want to smile and cry at the same time. she left but she looked back waved at me goodbye and smiled at me. i know, i would remember her. minutes later, a guy and a lady walked in. they were like my parents' age. then the guy would start talking to the lady. he talked about his work, just like my dad would do to my mom. telling her how good and great he was on work that day and how people fear him and so. he sat there and talked to the lady. i couldn't keep my eyes away from them. he is so much like my dad. loud. i know that when things are gone, we tend to miss it and fill ourselves with regret.

yes, i do feel regret and i miss a lot of things now.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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