i am not ready for it yet. forgiving takes a lot of courage and strength. but i am scared the courage is not enough to bring me through it, that the strength is not enough to hold me through it. i am not ready and i could not do it.

i will be coming back to KL on Wednesday. well, the boyf could not get enough leave as he can only get one day leave. better than nothing actually. nothing much to blog today. going to update the photography blog soon

Song Title: 서신 (Letter)
Singer: 정우 (Chung Woo)

들려줄게요 나의 이야기를
Let me tell you my story
그대 없던 그 시간들을
About the time when I didn’t have you
헌데 난 슬퍼요 그대를 웃게 할
I feel sad that I don’t
얘기가 하나 없다는 게
Happy stories to tell you

미안해 말아요 그대 울어도 돼요
Don’t feel sorry, it’s OK to cry
충분히 참아온 그대죠
You’ve been holding it back enough
마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 나를 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you

미안해 말아요 그대 웃어도 돼요
Don’t feel sorry, it’s OK to laugh
충분히 참아온 그대죠
You’ve been holding it back enough
마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 그댈 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you

마음을 꼭 닫아줄게요 나를 담은 채
Close your heart, with me inside you
그댈 담은 채 -
With you inside me

one of the OST from Heaven's Tree/ Tree of Heaven. a ten episode Korean drama and it is like a story retold by the main actress. quite a nice drama. a bit cliche now and then but well, it sure will make you sob your heart out.

Hana is a bright young girl who lost her father at a young age. When her mother returns to Japan, she comes with her new Korean husband and his son Yunsuh. Yunsuh’s mother died during his 10th birthday and after her death, he becomes autistic. While Hana is fond of her new step-brother, he wants nothing to do with her. When their parents leave on their honeymoon, Hana’s mother leaves the children with her deceased husband’s sister who will manage their inn during the trip. While they are gone, the aunt and her daughter Maya abuse Hana and make plans to sell the inn in order to pay for gambling debts and college. Despite all of this, Hana finds comfort in her brother who begins to open up to her and eventually speaks after his 20th Birthday and the day his mother passed away. Yunsush's mother died on the same day as he was turning 10, 10 years ago. As they start to have feelings for one another, Hana is afraid to love him. She soon leaves with her "senpai", Fujiwara Ryu, who also likes her. Later on, Maya gets jealous, and decides to make Hana's life even more miserable.

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Labels: disappintment, emotionally unstable