objections objections objections. that is the only thing i have been hearing and feeling for the past few days, correction, weeks. for once, if there is an objection to anything, would you please kindly come up with a solution for me too? right now i need no objections. i need solutions, i need a way, i need a bloody damn road. i am starting to get tired of these. i have been fighting for it and yet, no one is helping me at all. whenever i found a solution and scanned through the consequences, i realize that i have to endure all those might happens and possible future incident. to succeed in something is to endure the hardship.

i know that those objections are meant for my own good but since it has come to the state of objection, where is the solution? or what are your suggestions to fend off to my bad choice of ideas? at first i was thinking, why is everyone going against me? why can't for once they just let me be me. then it came across that the problem lies in me. i have been too picky and maybe it is right that i does not want to open to choices.

you see, i have been thinking a lot too. tons and tons of what ifs. i had no idea how tired i was. i never knew thinking was that tough and it is taking its toll on me. i am so lethargic during the day time. i spend most of my time thinking and nothing but thinking. honestly, is there anyone out there willing to think for me too?

and when things started falling apart, that is when i lost hold of faith.

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